#LIKE WHAT DO YOU THINK THE CHARACTER BIOS ARE FOR SRSLY
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basofy · 1 year ago
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i hope when the lisa definitive edition releases old and new players start to see the party members as not only a fun mechanic to progress in the game but also as their second purpose (specified even in their gang page)
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which is to tell how different the people of olathe are from eachother from good to neutral to bad.
all of the party members got their own personalities, points of view and goals, which i've always been appreciative of because it makes them all feel like they're their own person and it shows that they're not going to think exactly like you just because they're on your side.
so some of them can be assholes that despise brad for different reasons and are even creepy to buddy and others can just be neutral on the whole thing or don't care about brad but don't hate him and there are others who are nice people who just want someone to hang out and get attached to brad and it pains them to betray him at the end. some of them even got someone they care about too the same way brad cares for buddy.
and all of this is made just so you don't see them only as tools, they are written this way to show you what the people of olathe are like from a closer perspective. the only other way to do this would be using npcs which would go more overlooked, and it already IS overlooked by players
becuz over time i've seen toooo many fans who speak as if absolutely every man in olathe is an asshole and a pedo, which is why they congratulate tooley too much just for being decent to buddy. i like him but you give him too much credit for something other characters do as well.
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and they talk like these are just 'olathe standards' and like it's okay for this game when No, this game condemns this type of behavior at all times and it makes it very clear. it's not normal, it's just common
i mean was terry a creep towards buddy??? bo?? carp?? shocklord? birdie? nern? olan? the warlords??? and more characters and there are even npcs who deeply question the stuff going on around buddy or are simply not interested in her
and then i see takes such as "maybe x character is gay becuz they don't seem interested in buddy". pal i can think of a million better reasons to consider a character gay (sometimes no reason at all, have fun). (also again, TOOLEY. i mean he was seen at the beehive, isn't that a better reason to think he's gay??)
you don't need to be a pedo and a rapist to be attracted to women, and it's crazy how little the concept of consent matters to some people, because this isn't the only time i've seen this type of thinking over a piece of media.
this is a way of thinking that comes from people who got into lisa for the fun battles and do not understand the story, and it's sorta okay, it's fine if the battles are your favorite thing or if you're not that fond of emotional stories, but you can't ignore this part of the game, to do that you better just play something else, because my problem is that when you try to explain the emotional matters of lisa's story they never want to listen; they preffer living in their little bubble of misinterpreting everything. (like the amount of times i've tried explaining to other fans why lisa isn't worst than her goddamn dad and it's like talking to a wall) like damn, i love the battles too but i can perfectly have both things yknow.
anyway just my silly little thoughs that have been going thru my mind these past weeks, i take this game too seriously but i also feel like it's dumb not to because that's what it wants you to do.
hope things go well when the definitive edition drops and that everyone enjoys it 8)
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hanasnx · 10 months ago
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Tips for starting out a new writing blog ?
tbh tags. establish a tag system. figure out how you’re gonna organize your reblogs, your posts, the characters you write for etc etc. like srsly i wish i had done that when i started this blog, now i’m going back to manually change tags to fit my new tagging system.
i honestly choose an aesthetic first. name, title, descrip, pfp, bkg. it’s always the most fun for me. pick your fave colors bcos those will stick with you the longest.
put your age in your bio or pinned. super important
make a navi page, and masterlist page first. organize your masterlist by fandom ppl rly like that. make an anon page when you get your first emoji anon and keep track of themmmm by goddd i did not keep track of my emoji anons and recently had to revamp the whole thing, everyone had to pick new emojis. do a rules page also, and if you need help defining your boundaries in your rules take a look at mine bcos mine is super thorough
if you write smut don’t use the actor’s name or character’s name plain. like when i write a anakin skywalker smut post, i don’t say “hayden christensen” or “anakin skywalker” in the tags bcos it’s a good way to get stuck with a community label. chances are someone is in those tags that doesn’t look for smut and doesn’t know what a blow a community label is, and they just hit the “add community label” button so tumblr nails you with one. always tag your smut fics with “(character) smut” or “(character) x reader” and never just “(character)”
don’t tag more than you have to. like you don’t have to clog up tags with things that don’t pertain to it. if you’re writing anakin skywalker x reader don’t tag the fic as “obi wan x reader” too. keep your tags relevant otherwise ppl will tell u not to clog up tags.
if there’s a way to credit things, do. always. find a way to credit things. if you found a fanart picture on pinterest, reverse google image search it to find the source to check of the artist allows reposts etc. if you’re inspired by someone else’s writing even marginally mention them in the post you wrote inspired by their piece.
reblog other people’s work that you like.
that’s all i can think of rn. gl
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cherrywperson · 2 years ago
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idk if ur still doing this but uhh the tawog discussion thing... gimme ur thoughts hcs everything abt ocho pls my absolute blorbo
IM STILL GOING WITH IT!!!!! i want my inbox to be flooded /hj (okkay no but srsly i like getting these asks i like tawog anddd i wanna talk a bit abt it cuz im insane)
uhhh anyways anyways ocho!!! gamer guy he wears those silly gamer shirts that say stuff like "i paused my game to be here" etc etc etc
do you think he pirates games sometimes ? like he plays emulators ? maybe . i think he would . lol wouldnt that be silly ?? uhhhh what else uhh ohh alright . libramasculine bisexual demiromantic hes got those he/it/they + videogame related neos pronounces in bio (i hc a lot of tawog characters as trans sorry not sorry <3)
ohh and he might have sleep issues cuz yk gamer 24/7 . he would try calling a friend at like 3 am for whatever reason and get mad at them for not answering idk . . also maybe hes a discord user OMG I JUST HAD THE SILLIEST THOUGHT he could be the "everyone has uno dipshit it came free with your fucking xbox" guy HELPP THATS SO FUNNY
uhhhhhh okkay i think thats it OKKAY WAIT maybe he eats raw pasta like.. idk eats them dry sometimes .......
ohh also also uhhh okkay this might be off topic dont know if you wanna hear this but like . okay im planning on making more gijinka tawog art right? yeah i kinda wanna simulate the artstyle a bit okay maybe not too much just as much as i can yk? so yeah i wanna draw ocho in a pixel art style if do ever do draw them ^__^ just gotta practice that a bit yk yk
okkay does are all of my thoughts gootbye
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tylerxrbtwhp · 5 months ago
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Idk what im doing, going to random people's account and sending random questions BUTT.
i have a fewwww questions cuz i saw that reblog where u said that anybody can come to your and ask yada yada SO im here!!
What name/names should i/we call you?
What is your fav color?
What is your fav food?
What is your fav drink?
What is your fav animal?
What is your personality type?
What do you like to do in your free time?
Do you have a pet?
Do you love rocks?
What fandoms are you in?
Mom or dad?
What do you want to be when you grow up? / What is your job?
If you like reading, what genre is your fav?
If you like art, what is your fav type?
If you like music, what is your fav genre?
What is your fav school subject?
Do you have siblings / a sibling?
What is your fav flower?
What is your fav weather?
Do you have a fav writer? If so, who?
If you like/love Genshin Impact then who is/are your fav genshin characters?
By your posts, you seem to like Marvel! Who is/are your fav Marvel and DC character?
By your pfp, who is your fav FNAF character?
Do you have a fav celebrity? If so, who?
What would you do if you changed gender for a day and everybody treated you as that gender?
If you like travelling then where would you like to go?
Which country do you hate the most?
Which country do you love the most?
Are you calm or the opposite?
Do you love eating?
Ohmagawd THIRTY QUESTIONS AND I OMG i didnt even realize 😇
damn dude chill out [jkjk] 😭
oki so here 1. Tyler or Xanical 2. I got 3 actually, Blue, Green and Purple though i like blue the most 3. Nothing really, I can take anything except pork and a few other stuff 4. Water, Coffee or Tea, idk 5. Cats and Horses! 6. i THINK its in my bio? idk but its ISTJ and specifically ISTJ-A 7. Whatever i want 💀But srsly, reading or gaming, either 8. Yeah actually 9. OH HELL YES THERE ARE SO MANY DIFFERENT TYPE OF ROCKS!!! omg especially those sparkly ones!! I have two rocks on my desk, they were shiny when i first picked them up but unfortunately the shine didnt stay 😔 10. Theres quite a few 😭Marvel, FNAF, Football/Soccer, Creepypasta, Genshin Impact, One Piece, MHA (I dont even watch anime 😭), Countryhumans (I despise countryhumans/countryballs ships.) and uhh prolly Minecraft and Red Dead Redemption 2 11. Dad. (Tho i LOVE LOVE LOVE MY MOTHER SO MUCH TOO!! i was actually debating the other day whether i love mom or dad more but dad always wins besides she has her son 🙄) 12. tbh an officer, specifically a NAVY ones 13. There are a few like Horror, Mystery, Science Fiction etc etc but imo Fiction always wins 🔥 14. I dont like making arts that much 😭But seeing others make magnificent arts is always so cool!! 15. Rock or Country, cant decide 16. HISTORY AHH 🔥🔥🔥 17. yup 18. the classic, roses! 19. Rainy or cloudy, like a weather when everything is calm and stuff 20. Tbh i dont have one, every writer is unique in their own way and everyone's writing is so majestic that i cant even choose one 😭 21. ohoohoho ik ik!! Pierro, The Jester. My always no. 1 though im getting obsessed with Zhongli and Neuvillitte these days! 22. Iron man, Tony Stark my beloved no. 1 and i'd go for Heath Ledger's Joker for DC 23. IF IT ISNT OBVIOUS ENOUGH- 😭😭(no offense) Its Springtrap or Burntrap, cant decide but their the same person the basically William Afton! 24. IT'S ROBERT DOWNEY JUNIORRRR!!!!!! ahem. 25. I seriously dont know 😭 26. Prolly Russia, Britain, Germany or Switzerland, maybe Norway but Russia's my main goal!! 27. Israel. 28. My own country!!! 29. The ppl around me say that im calm so yeh 30. Idk im in th middle of the scale 🔥 ____________________________________________ DONEEEE yes. its 05:23 yo 🔥
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shuckinbeanz · 3 years ago
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Gangster!BNHA au p.3
warnings/notes: nsfw, minors dni or imma 👏 virtual 👏 smacc 👏 u 👏, fucking (literally) gangsters, mentions of kleptomania, mirror kink, mentions of a little feederism, making and use of drugs, sex while high, semi-public sex, cockwarming, slight mention of brat taming, spanking, Service and Daddy Doms, overstimulation, cervix kissing/fucking, size kink, a lil bit of praise kink, as well as dumbification mentions, sugar daddy, & begging if you squint, plus maybe something tiny about an unhealthy relationship? 🤔 but its not toxic. depends how you look at it, whatever floats your boat, ig. i absolutely ruin our poor sweet tama-tan but trust me you'll love the gangster him. 🥴 some are longer than others(not sorry) and I used a translation service for Sero's Spanish, so i know it's potentially gibberish in the actual language, so I'll mark what I actually want him to say. If it needs correcting don't be afraid to hmu 👀 pls
Underage characters are Aged Up!
MINORS 👏 DNI! 👏 AGE 👏 IN 👏 BIO 👏 OR 👏 DNI! 👏 Head on over to @candybowbeansies please for my SFW pieces, or be blocked if you interact here! 😇
First | Second | Third
we know(or at least some of us know) ab @miggiisdumb and her LOVELY gangster!bakugo 🥵 which inspired these! Featuring present mic(who gave me trouble), inasa, sero, fatgum, and suneater(who gave me even more trouble).
shameless tag: @pixiikitty cuz i kno we bof wike tama-tan... 🥺👉👈
gangster!hizashi is another calculating man who puts on a himbo facade. very, very charismatic, so he's often Might Gang's negotiator. his boundless energy is contagious, and your wrong if you think he hasn't been around. like, around, around. man is a favorite where he works, teaching pole dancing-and he's literally their posterchild. he's the one that rakes in clients. yes, you heard me right. he teaches pole-dancing. and he does choreography.
he's literally eros and apollo by studio killers. srsly. listen to the song.
he follows the work hard-play hard style of life. man is a hardcore party animal.
as such, man is a FREAK in the sheets. he's so fucking kinky mf might as well be a fucking porn star. and he is Very open about it. sex is a natural thing to do, and he's legit a natural at it
he's a hardcore top, SOMETIMES he MIGHT let you 'top' him, but remember; he's the one in charge. big sadist this mf is, and an even bigger tease.
with him, it'd be any position viable in front of a mirror. loves to make you watch as his jacob's ladder pops wetly in your cunny 🥴
gangster!inasa is yet another himbo who's all brawn, can never sit still, and has zero brain cells. like gangster!kirishima mans ass is thicc. just grab it, okay? mans will reward punish you later (you can tell from that one look he gives you. ya'know, that one look that makes your panties drop? yes that one 🥵)
as a brawler mans will fite for your honor. there's literally no stopping him. (he's got chronic spontaneity, but we'll do more on that in a bit.) and oh boy, does he pack a mean punch. the kind of punch that will turn someone's face into a bowl if he's pissed off enough. Only those brave enough to degrade you when he's around(trust me, man is an intimidating wall of muscle at a whopping 6'3, and his natural sharp eyes sigh 😩), or those who see you temporarily left alone and decide to degrade/harass you while he's off doing something for a minute or two, get a knuckle sandwhich. "The fuck you think you are, comin' up on my lambchop like I ain't around?!" keheheh look they're flying~
he's spontaneous with the majority of his actions, and he almost always goes along with whatever you want 99% of the time.
and if you're super kinky, man is all for it. wanna use panty vibes? Inasa is a ruthless tease. man will edge you allll fucking day. public restroom sex? boi will take you to one of those unisex restrooms for a ride 🥴
he is a Service Dom, a Daddy Dom, and he's a brat tamer. if you wanna be a brat, he will tame provide to you what you're begging for by being one. you know what you're getting into when you decide to be a brat, you heathens. expect soft discipline(spanking, soft biting, hair tugging/pulling) as he has your bratty cunt warm his exquisite cock balls deep, scolding you for being a brat, til you're literally sobbing for him to rail you already 😩 its phat and veiny and has an angry red weeping mushroom head 😩 its gotta be his enthusiasm its gotta be 😩
"Now, now, little lamb...you knew what you were getting into." Spank. "Riling Daddy up like that." Spank. "You never learn, do you, sweetheart? Now you gotta learn your place, again...no moving."
gangster!sero is very easygoing, approachable, and just overall just take a joint and chillax type of guy. but don't let this fool you. he's another calculating type, but not much can set him off. he knows his limits, and he likely knows yours too. he is extremely observant, and like gangster!deku he expertly plays out his schemes.
he is very sneaky, light-footed(that is to be expected in his line of work), and he has almost zero presence. so expect a lot of scare pranks from him to get a rise out of you 😂 (don't worry you can get back at him later)
to put it bluntly, he's a thief. he can, will, and won't hesitate to klepto whatever catches his eye(especially if it reminds him of you).
BUT JUST BECAUSE HE'S A THIEF dont mean he can't kill someone. srsly. there's a couple dozen skeletons he's made dotted about. literally. but i'll leave that to your imagination. onto the bedroom!
TIE HIM UP, OR LET HIM TIE YOU UP
he's into BDSM. he's a complete brat in the sack. bratty sub, bratty dom. he is a power bottom, and a bit of a masochist for you.
"Oh dios, que me jodan...you're so pretty for me like this, lovebug."
(says "Oh God, fuck me...")
he's ab average in size, he has a nice bulge under his cock and he tilts to th side a lil and down just right😩 when he tops he'll fold you in positions (yes, plural; mans will find them) where he hits your g-spot 🥴 it'll take a couple times, but when he's got you figured out, he'll make you go dumb from then on "Remember the safeword, mi amor." 🥵
gangster!taishiro is Might Gang's drug dealer. man literally has not one, but two kitchens, one for cooking drugs and the other because man is a foodie, as you'd be able to tell from his physique. he is an intimidating gentle giant at a whopping 6'5, and man is dummy thicc. like he loves his abnormally large hoodies that make you look like you're wearing a fucking ballgown cuz he's xtra hawt n xtra large 🥵 but when its off and his form can't be easily mistaken for pure chubalub, man is also stacked and strong. he is very good at cooking drugs, and has a vast array of anonymous clientele. he's a fucking genius.
he's a very playful, sweet, and carefree dude-highly extroverted. you can find him easily, as he frequents literally every (shady) club in town. man has a switch, and it when it flips when he's doin' business he does a complete 180.
like gangster!toshinori, he loves to spoil his honeypie ROTTEN and he is 100% a Daddy Dom. dont be too much of a brat. it won't get you anywhere with him. if you want something, say it, and Daddy will provide. so don't beat around the fucking bush.
"You want somethin', sweetheart? Let Daddy get it for his sweet li'l tootsieroll~"
he loves LOVES waking up to the smell of his baby girl's home cooking. and if you don't know how to cook, he'll teach you if you're willing to learn. Feed him a couple bites or let him feed you once in awhile bc your cheeks are adorable to him 🥺
man is PACKING between his legs, right up there with gangster!toshinori in size. he's a big guy, has a big dick, and as such there ain't many positions that can be used, but he'll always make you feel small and safe and oh my god 🙏 pray for your coochie because Daddy will go up, over, and beyond to make sure she is thoroughly satisfied and will make her go dumb unless you tell him to stop 🥵
"Fuuuuck, babygirl. So tight...you make Daddy feel so good. It's only right that Daddy does the same for you, yeah?"
gangster!tamaki is a hot mess. he's socially awkward, its very likely he suffers from PTSD, he also suffers from depression and has v bad anxiety that leads to his defensive mechanism-lashing out. this defense mechanism also extends to you-and not in the way you're thinking, you masochists. he's loyal to a fault, and when he sees you being harassed, degraded, etc., he will explode. you'll need to calm him down before he permanently cancels some life subscriptions, and you're the only thing closest to gangster!mirio and drugs that can without getting hurt. he's tall, 6'1 but he tends to hunch, and he's lanky, but don't let this fool you. He is very agile and quite strong, so he can take a group at once.
he is very dependent on drugs, and dependent on you. don't get me wrong, he's a grown man, he don't rely on you so much where the relationship would be downright toxic. you are not his therapist, and he knows that, but he still has issues, and you both know that.
cockwarming and cuddles are two huge things with him, especially when he's as high as a kite. he's very handsy and touchy when he's high, and he's very mouthy too. I don't necessarily mean verbally, btw. i mean the kisses he gives. if you let him, he'll leave marks. after he's done, he'll have you ride him til your tuckered out.
"You're so good to me, baby... *Gasp* Y-Yes...keep bouncin', please!~"
when he's high, he's confident and dominant. and with these two combined, he can be very passionate. a tamaki who's high doesn't simply fuck. he makes passionate love-nice and slow, or hot and heavy-so set the pace, honey, because mini-tama is rearing to go; he has a pretty thang 😩 a very pretty thang. it's long and not too chunky and his pretty PHAT light pink mushroom head is fucking sensitive so suck on it 🥺
and THE STAMINA THIS MAN HAS 😩 once he's on the confidence boat, he can and will go for hours. he's kinda masochistic because he LOVES overstimulation, so mans can keep cumming. better make a point to babble praises, because it's music to his ears. he'll have your bodies squished together and his pretty pink mushroom head kissing your cervix. tease him if you want his inner dom to come out and bully your womb open. 😩 do a few kegels if you want him to lose it and rail you hard 🥵
"You asked for it, bunny. Yeah--nnnh--you fucking asked for it."
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Nev, Max, Help!-Nate Jacobs Oneshot
Requested: Yes
Warnings: aggressiveness and rudeness from Nate and a brief panic attack scene
A/N: The reader is gender neutral since the requester did not specify what they wanted and I did not want to disrespect the storyline from the show. Also, it’s a long one. 
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  For once, Amy Winehouse’s low, melancholy voice did nothing to soothe my nerves as I typed what I was looking for in the designated box. “Love is a Losing Game” was definitely not the best song for the mood but I loved her voice so much; it was like a really messed up security blanket for me. My thumbs shook as I kept typing and quickly deleting my words. 
  Someone to have fun with.
  No, that’ll bring every single creep to my profile.
  Someone to watch Netflix with.
  Ew, no, they won’t want to go anywhere or do anything. 
  Someone to discuss Maya Angelou with...
  This could go one of two ways: attract a sensitive, nice person or the ultimate softboi who was really just an f-boy in a sensible cardigan.
    Okay, Y/N, just add to it.
   ...and have adventures, great conversations, and watch the best movies.
   That seemed broad enough and, potentially, weeded out all the weirdos. Patti Stanger would approve of this. I took such a deep breath that I could feel the oxygen in my feet as I pressed the green check mark. An adorable buffering sign appeared before being quickly replaced by a CONGRATULATIONS, Y/N/N, ON COMPLETING YOUR PROFILE. 
   The air came out of me slowly, like a balloon, and I tried to make myself relax as I swiped through different matches. One person was too short, the other too tall, another had way too many pictures with reptiles in his profile, and one’s bio simply read: DM and you’ll find out. 
  Serial killer much?
  “That’s part of your problem, Y/N,” Jules had chastised me a few day prior.
 “What do you mean by ‘part’?” I’d replied.
 “Well, for one, you barely leave the house anymore unless I drag you out,” Jules argued.
  “I’m busy,” I’d defended. 
  “Rewatching Breaking Bad for the eighth time does not count as being busy. Plus, you’re so picky.”
  “Am not!” 
  “You said you’d only do DiCaprio in his Great Gatsby days,” Rue had added.
  “Did you see him in that suit?” 
  Jules then shrugged. “All I’m saying is if you aren’t careful, you will end up all alone.”
  “That’s not true, Y/N might get cats.” 
  That conversation had haunted me since and had driven me to making a dating profile after the required Saturday night family dinner. While my parents and brother were downstairs watching a movie, I was holed up in my room, cringing and regretting accepting any chat requests. 
   Half an hour on the app caused the images of various male genitalia to be burned into my mind. I would need my brain soaked in holy water for it to be erased. I huffed and kept scrolling, vainly hoping and wishing for a decent guy to pop up on my radar.
  Maybe Jules and Rue were wrong. Maybe I had all the right in the world to be picky, I thought harshly to myself. 
  I dropped my phone on my nightstand and flopped against my pillows as Me and Mr. Jones began playing. I sighed and felt myself being lulled into the comforting abyss Amy created. 
   Ding!
   I jumped out and glared at the source of the noise. Another chat request, another picture to ruin my young brain? 
  “Be positive, Y/N, this might be good,” I stated as I grabbed the phone. 
  Tyler wants to chat!
   I frowned and opened up the app, only to be met with the most sculpted six-pack I had ever seen. My heart began banging against my chest and my thumbs fumbled for a moment to answer the chat request. 
  Whoosh. 
  My stomach dropped as I stared at my first chat to Tyler: Shg.ismtle
  I’m. Going. To. Die. Alone.
  I quickly typed: Please ignore that, I’m so sorry!
  Seconds later, my phone dinged.
  Tyler: Really? I thought you were trying to send me a secret code and I liked that we were that cool already.
  This was not real, this could not be happening. Tyler had to be a bot, that was why he didn’t show his face in his profile. Bots were supposed to have a hard time recognizing and creating faces, right? 
   But, on the off chance Tyler was real, it would have been rude to leave the conversation so abruptly? 
   Y/N: Who knows? Maybe it was a secret code and I’m just testing you.
   Tyler: Ok, let me guess what it means.
   Tyler: Hi? 
   Y/N: Haha, you really thought I’d use such a simple code as a first message?
   Tyler: It’s my bad for underestimating u. I should have known u were smarter since you read Maya Angelou.
  Y/N: U a fan? 
  Tyler: “You can’t use up creativity. The more you use, the more you have.” 
  He knows Angelou? He could have Googled a quote though. Still, it’s a good quote to use if he had Googled it.
   Y/N: Nice, but, doesn’t get u out of the guessing game.
   As Tyler helplessly guessed wrong for several minutes, I couldn’t stop myself from smiling. I used to think online dating was a last resort or a breeding ground for predators. But, maybe there were decent people looking for something (or someone) meaningful after all. 
  Tyler: I give up, you’re really good. 
  Y/N: Thx. But, I can tell you what I meant to say. 
  Tyler: The suspense is srsly kiilling me. 
  Y/N: I meant 2 say hey.
  Tyler: I guessed that!
   Y/N: No, u guessed ‘hi’, there’s a difference.
  Tyler: C’mon, barely.
   For the rest of the night, Tyler and I chatted. He told me that he plays baseball at a school across town and he doesn’t like anyone around there. He liked John Mulaney stand-up, lemon bars, going to the gym, hanging out with his friends, and reading good books. He was an only child and his parents tended to spoil him. I told him about my friends and how I liked being on the swim team at my school as well as the different YouTubers and books I enjoyed. When I finally fell asleep, I dreamed of talking to him. 
   On Monday, Jules and Rue were hanging out outside the school as other people either headed to class or relaxed on the lawn. I could not stop my feet from bouncing as I walked up to them.
   “...and that is why Sailor Mercury is the most underrated character of the whole show,” Jules affrimed. 
   Rue seemed halfway interested as her head nodded slowly underneath the hood of her burgundy hoodie. “Cool, all I asked was who’s your favorite but, cool.” 
   Jules rolled her eyes playfully and straightened up when she saw me. “Hey, Y/N, nice shirt.” 
  “Thanks.” I wore a sky blue tie dye shirt with ripped jeans and white Converse.
  Rue leaned forward and squinted at me. “You’re not wearing black, something’s wrong.” 
  “Nothing’s wrong, she’s obviously been influenced by me!” Jules teased as she wrapped a slim arm around my shoulders.
  “Yeah, you can only hang out with this literal rainbow human so long before she starts influencing your outfit choices.”
  We started heading inside, which was really just Jules and me dragging Rue into the building.
   “But I don’t wanna be here. It’s so stupid that I have to wait six more months before I can legally decide where I spend my time,” Rue muttered.
  “It’s fine, you have us!” Jules insisted.
   “Yup!” I agreed.
  “Hey, Y/N, Rue, Jules!” Cassie greeted as she sidled up next to me. 
  We all greeted her.
  “Have a good weekend?” Rue asked. 
  “Yeah, there was this great party that Nick Davis threw. I swear, everyone there was on acid.” Cassie stopped herself and bit her bottom lip. “Sorry---” 
   Rue shook her head. “It’s fine.”
  “How were yours?” Cassie asked as we continued to our lockers. 
  “Fine,” Jules said.
  Rue shrugged in response.
  I opened my mouth to reply when my phone beeped and I wrestled it out of my pocket. 
  Tyler: Is it 2 late 4 a good morning text? 
  I smiled. 
  “You’re so cheesy,” I muttered under my breath. 
  “Who’s that?” Cassie asked, peeking over my shoulder.
   I jumped and cradled my phone to my chest like it was my child. “No one.” 
   Jules pulled open her locker and cocked a bleached eyebrow. “‘No one’ does not cause huge smiles like that!” She jabbed a sparkly-manicured finger at me. 
  “Yeah, show us,” Rue said. “We are your friends.” 
  “It’s nothing,” I insisted as I weaved around them. 
  I pushed myself against my locker and managed to open it with my free hand. Rue was on one side of me and Cassie was on the other. 
  “Is it a boy?” Cassie sang.
  “Or a girl?” Rue questioned.
  “It’s none of your business,” I gritted out as I grabbed my necessary books. 
  As I shuffled the books in my arms, Jules came from behind and slipped my phone away from me. I gasped, whirled around, and watched as Rue tried to look at the phone while Cassie playfully blocked me.
  “Guys, this is not cool! This is such a serious invasion of privacy,” I argued as I tried to move around Cassie.
  “We’re besties, there’s no such thing as privacy!” Jules retorted. 
  “Wow, Y/N, these are so----” Jules cut Rue off.
  “Adorable!” Jules squealed and turned to face me.
  Cassie took the opportunity to glance at my phone and she smiled. “Aw, this Tyler guy sounds so sweet.” 
  I snatched my phone from Jules. “Well, now you know. Can we please go to class now?” 
  As the other girls grabbed their things from their lockers, I got out my phone to reply to Tyler.
  Y/N: It’s never too late...until noon technically.
   Somehow, I started wandering away from the girls until I ran into someone. I tried to jump away, but they grabbed me by the forearms.
  “I am so sorry, I should have looked where I was going---” I stopped speaking when I recognized Nate’s direct gaze on me. I was pretty tall but I always felt like he could throw me into the lockers if he wanted to.
  “Watch it, Y/N,” he muttered. 
  “Nate, let go of them,” Maddy chided, her hand resting against one of his arms. 
  She seemed to have the magic touch because he relaxed and I joined my friends. As the couple continued down the hallway, I couldn’t help but admire them. In a very messed up way, they worked. Kat had told me only a little about what Nate would do whenever Maddy upset him and I felt so bad for her, angry at him, and then conflicted. Nate just had to have that stereotypical amazing all-American look.
  “You okay, Y/N?” Cassie asked.
  “Yeah, is it weird that I can still feel his eyes on me even when he’s not looking?” I asked. 
  “No, his need for dominance permeates everyone’s sense of autonomy,” Rue assured.
  “Nice,” Jules said. 
  “And scary accurate,” Cassie added. 
  Jule looped her arm with mine and steered us in the direction of our first classes. “Anyway, if he tries anything, I’m sure Tyler would gladly kick his butt for you.” 
   Throughout the day, Tyler and I chatted and I even had to get creative with responding. In English, I kept my head down during quiet reading time and made sure my phone was positioned just right in my lap. During geometry, I told Mrs. Packer that I was having some digestive issues and spent most of the class outside the bathroom, texting Tyler. At lunch, I could barely focus on my friends’ conversation.
   “Hello, Earth to Y/N?” Lexi waved her hand in front of my face and I blinked.
   “Sorry, I was----”
   “Texting her boooyfriiiend,” Jules sang.
   “He’s not my boyfriend, we’re just talking.” I started poking at my sandwich. “What did I miss?” 
  “Oh, nothing, just the fact that I nearly blew up the school during chem,” Cassie said. 
  “Magnesium chloride isn’t an explosive,” Lexi argued. 
  “Well, the tube overflowed and everyone was freaking out,” Cassie argued.
  “Yeah, because magnesium chloride can have bad side effects,” Lexi continued.
   “I wonder what would happen if the school exploded and we weren’t all here? Would they have to give us our diplomas?” I thought outloud.
  “Ooh, and I could go to fashion school early!” Jules cheered. 
  “I’d be happy not coming here anymore,” Rue admitted. 
  It was quiet for a moment as we all ate but that quiet was broken when Maddy yelled.
  “WHO ARE YOU TEXTING?”
  I couldn’t help myself but look. Maddy was standing behind Nate, who was sitting with his teammates at the center table. Bebe and Kat flanked Maddy a little behind. Everyone stared at them. Nate’s jaw tightened. 
  “Maddy, calm down,” his relaxed, controlled voice nearly echoed in the silent cafeteria. 
  “DON’T TELL ME TO CALM DOWN! YOU’VE BEEN ON YOUR PHONE ALL DAY!” she snapped. 
  “Maddy---” 
  “ARE YOU TEXTING OTHER GIRLS?” Maddy shouted.
  “Can we talk about this somewhere else?” Nate asked. 
  Maddy sighed. “Are you gonna let me see your phone?”
  “Maddy, we need to talk.” 
  “Don’t talk to me again.” 
  Before Nate could respond, Maddy dumped the contents of her lunch tray over his head and threw the tray aside. Kat and Bebe followed her as she strutted out of the cafeteria amid the shocked gasps. 
   “I’m gonna go check on her,” Cassie whispered.
  We all nodded and she quietly exited the room. As I stared at Nate, the supposed king of the school, drenched in soggy salad and fat-free milk, I wondered why he could never stay broken up with Maddy. Their relationship was not just toxic, it was volatile. Their breakups were always public and outrageous, but they always ended up back together. No one questioned it either. I never understood why people could continue to choose relationship they knew was bad over pursuing something new. I told Tyler as much that night. 
   Y/N: It’s like those dogs that get killed by electric fences because they keep walking into them.
  Tyler: U have a good point, but, that couple’s relationship is more complicated than u think. 
  Y/N: Probably, but, it doesn’t look that way. They hurt each other a lot.
  Tyler: How do u know? 
   Y/N: Bc I’ve seen it. I don’t mean 2 b judgy, but, I could never be in a relationship like that. 
  Tyler: Well, I don’t think anyone would b if they knew it would b bad. 
  Y/N: Good point. But, why would they get back together so much? 
  Tyler: Idk them, but, it could b bc it’s familiar and it’s what they know.
  Y/N: Still, it’s messed up.
 Tyler: Yeah, but I don’t wanna talk abt them anymore.
 Y/N: K, what do u wanna talk abt? 
  A few seconds later, Tyler sent me a picture so graphically beautiful that I was convinced I passed out.
 The next day, I showed Rue and Jules the picture during break time.
 “Holy crap!” Jules took my phone and leaned into it for closer inspection. 
 “Tyler is packing,” Rue agreed. 
  Jules slid my phone back to me. “You haven’t replied to him?”    “No, and he hasn’t talked to me at all today.”
  “He’s probably expecting a reply that’s similar to what he sent,” Rue said.
  My face warmed up. “I can’t send him nudes,” I hissed.
  “Why not? It’s like the greeting cards of our generation,” Jules stated.
  “Really? You’d send your grandparents a greeting card of your naked body?” I replied sarcastically.
  “Relax, if you’re uncomfortable, we can help you,” Jules assured.
  “We can?” Rue asked.
  “We can.” Jules gave her a look and Rue relaxed. 
  “It’s still weird, but, I guess you guys can come over after school.”
  “Sweet! Your mom still bakes cookies for you after school, right?” Jules asked.
  I nodded.
  “She might stop once she learns her darling favorite older child is sending nudes,” Rue snorted as she spoke.
  I recoiled in my seat, taking a second to bask in the sun’s warmth. “Don’t remind me.” 
  After swim practice, once my teammates left the locker room, I eyed my naked form in the mirror. I had nothing to be ashamed of, really, thanks to all the swimming, but, I just felt weird being naked in front of people. There was something so vulnerable about it, like, being on display in a museum or lying on a cold surgery table. But, online dating was supposed to get me out of my comfort zone and I’d found someone who’d made me feel comfortable enough to do it. With this resolve, I changed into a hoodie and some sweatpants and left the school. It was dusk and I typically walked home after practice since it wasn’t far. Plus, I’d told Jules and Rue to just go to my house after school. 
  The late breeze rippled past me and I dug my hands into my pants’ pockets as I started walking towards the parking lot. There was barely anyone around, except stoners hotboxing their cars, some couples making out, and dance team members and football players getting out of practice.
  I kept my head down as I maneuvered around the few cars and people around. It felt like someone could spot what I was about to do once I got home and it was nervewracking. All I had to do was get home, let Jules make me look even better, take these pictures, and never thinking of it again.
   “Something on your mind, Y/N?” Nate called.
   I froze and snapped my head up to look at him. He was leaning against his truck, looking like a model for Ford in only a tshirt and jeans. Ford should hire him. 
   “No, not really,” I said. 
   I started to side step the truck, eyeing the sidewalk that was only a few yards away as though it was a lifeline. 
  “Get in,” Nate ordered.
  I paused and looked at him. “Excuse me?” 
  “I see you walking home all the time, let me do you a favor, one athlete to another.” Nate was about halfway in the driver’s seat of the car and all I could do was stare.
  “We’ve...never really talked before,” I stated. 
  “We can talk during the drive.” 
   I stepped back and my eyes flittered around, like the best decision would hit me in the face. Then, I saw Maddy across the lot. She was standing with a couple of dance team girls, including Cassie. She stared me down as though daring me to do it. I glanced from her to Nate, who started the engine loudly. 
   I quickly climbed into the passenger’s seat and stared into Maddy’s reflection in the rearview mirror as he pulled out of the parking lot. 
  “How do you know where I live?” I asked.
  “You forgot that I gave you a ride before?” Nate asked.
  “When?” 
  “After Cassie’s sweet sixteen. You blacked out, your friends were panicking, and I offered to take you home. For some reason, you remembered your address,” Nate recalled.
  “Oh, thanks?” 
  “Sure.” 
  We pulled up to my house a few minutes later, Lil Wayne bragging about his conquests filling the quiet. I hopped out of the truck and grabbed my bag. 
  “Thanks for the ride, this one, I mean, I owe you,” I said.
  “Yeah, see you around, Y/N.” 
  I closed the door and headed inside.
  “I’m home!” I called.
  My mom poked her head out from the kitchen. “Y/N, how was school and practice?” 
  “Fine.” 
  “Was that Nate Jacobs outside?” 
  I hesitated. 
  How did she know what Nate’s truck looked like?  “Yeah, he gave me a ride today.” 
  “Aw, isn’t that sweet? Rue and Jules are waiting for you in your room. They took the cookies with them.”  
  I nodded and went to my room. As soon as I walked in, they bombarded me with questions.
  “Why did Nate give you a ride?” Rue asked.
  “What did you guys talk about?” Jules inquired. 
  “Don’t you hate him?” 
  “He’s kind of a dick, but, unfortunately, super good looking.”
  “Did Maddy see?” 
  “Do you think she’s gonna kill you?” 
  “Guys, I don’t know but I do know that if you do not take amazing pictures of me with no clothes on soon, I will delete my entire profile,” I interrupted. 
  They both nodded. 
  “But, we will ask for details later,” Jules insisted.
  “Okay, but, please give me a cookie, I’ll need it to get through this.” 
  Rue extended the plate towards me and I bit into the melty goodness as Jules began doing my makeup. It was simple, only bringing out my best features. I made them both turn around as I undressed. Once I had, Jules encouraged me.
  “You look amazing, I would be shocked if he didn’t jizz in his pants,” Jules said.
  “Lower your voice, Y/B/N can only play Five Nights at Freddy’s so loud,” I hissed.
  Jules held her hands up and Rue direct me to lay on the bed, my phone held up in front of her.
  “Okay, look sexy,” Rue said.
  I tried to smolder, but, by their expressions, I did not achieve it.
  “No, like, pout your lips, like, you just heard that TheOdd1sOut is not uploading for a month,” Jules directed.
  “And give the camera bedroom eyes, you know, as though it’s Tyler.”
  “Okay.”    After a few pictures, I slowly got the hang of it and even started posing a little naturally.
  “Oh my gosh, Tyra is shook!” Jules cheered. 
 “Yeah, these are pretty good if I do say so myself.” Rue handed me my phone and I flipped through the pictures. 
  She was a talented photogrpaher and I joked that maybe she should go professional.
  “Yeah, I’m sure I’d have a nice clientele.” 
  I laughed as I changed back into my hoodie and sweatpants. “Okay, help me pick one to send.” 
  Jules took my phone and she and Rue began scrolling.
  “No, the lighting’s off in this one,” Jules muttered.
  “No, it’s never off in any of these,” Rue argued. 
  “I’m not shading your talent, I’m just trying to find the best thing for Y/N to send Tyler.” 
  After a little more bickering, we all agreed on the picture and I sent it to Tyler.
  “Should I follow it up with something?” I asked.
  “Maybe say ‘Wrong person’? Guys want what other guys want,” Jules suggested.
  “Or say ‘Sorry for the late reply’,” Rue added.
  “I’ll go with Rue’s, sorry, Jules.” 
  Jules shrugged. 
  I sent everything off and my friends and I watched as Tyler typed a response.
  Tyler: It was worth the wait ;).
  We squealed so loud that my mom yelled for us to keep it down. We apologized as we descended into a fit of giggles. Through it all, I could not help but feel so bouncy and light all over. Was I...falling for this total stranger? 
  “What do you think he looks like?” Jules asked during lunch later that week.
  I shrugged. “It’s different every day, if that makes sense.” 
  “I guess that’s the nice thing about interacting with someone who doesn’t show their face,” Jules thought outloud. 
  “How do you see him now?” Lexi asked. 
  I sighed. “Right now, I think he’s tall, six feet at least. He’s got a mix of blonde and brown hair like a surfer because it’s lightened from all the time he’s spent in the sun. He has green eyes, freckles, and he dresses well.” 
  “Sounds amazing,” Jules said as she rest her chin in her hand. 
  Rue nodded slowly. “You’re not nervous or anything?” 
  “No, this is so cheesy, but, I feel like I know him, you know? He’s so easy to talk to and has so much to say.”
  “Y/N’s blushing,” Jules teased. “Do you love him?” 
  “I really, really, really, like him.” 
  “Do you think you’ll meet soon?” Lexi asked.
  I shrugged. “I don’t know, neither of us has brought it up.”
  “Well, it just matters that you’re comfortable, okay?” Rue said.
  “Okay.” 
  If I was honest, I did not know if I wanted to meet Tyler. I knew that I liked him more than I liked anyone before, but, there was something strange about breaking this wall the internet provided us. It was freer to talk on the internet than it was in person. What if I said something stupid in front of him? What if he thought that I looked different in person? What if he looked different in person? 
  I managed to keep these thoughts at bay for the rest of the day until I got home. Post-dinner had been officially declared Talk to Tyler Time. None of my family knew what I was doing besides blasting Amy Winehouse in my room for about an hour. My laugh nearly overpowered her high note in “Best Friends, Right?”. I had to blink away my happy tears as I replied to him. 
  Y/N: That did not happen!  Tyler: Yes it did! Do u want 2 c the scar????
 Y/N: No, I think I’m good.
 I wiped away my tears and settled under the covers. I wondered if his friends would agree that Tyler gets into some weird situations as well. Just as I started typing, Tyler beat me.
 Tyler: I want 2 meet u.
 The speed that I launched my phone away from me almost shocked me more than the text.
  Almost.
  My heartbeat thrummed in my ears. This was it, I knew I couldn’t avoid him much longer, but, I felt like I couldn’t move. All I could do was stare at my phone like it was the most offensive object in the world. Slowly, I regained mobility and grabbed my phone. I took a deep breath.
  “Take a chance, Y/L/N,” I whispered.
  Y/N: When and where?
    “You’re meeting him tonight?” Jules squealed the next day.
  I hushed her as people in the hallway paused to look at us. “Not so loud.”   “But this is so exciting. Please let me help you decide what to wear,” Jules pleaded with a pout. 
  “Sure,” I said. 
  Jules hugged me. “This is going to be so fun. I won’t go crazy with glitter since this is the first time you’re meeting this guy.” 
 “Thanks?” 
 “Do your parents know?” Rue asked.
 “No,” I replied as I slowly pulled away from Jules. “They’re coming Senior Night tonight, though. and I’m going to meet him at Mercy Park an hour before it ends.” 
 “Are you sure you even want to do this? I know that Jules and I tease you about your love life, but, this is risky,” Rue said. 
 “You weren’t saying that when you were helping me with those pictures the other day,” I shot back.
  “That was different. You’re...you’re actually meeting him now and he could be a psychopath or a sociopath or, just, a creepy old guy who likes to look at teenagers!” Rue insisted.
  “Rue, relax, everything’s going to be fine.”
  “You don’t know that!” She turned on her heel and hurried into the bathroom with Jules and I on her tail. 
  When we entered, Rue was leaning against the wall, panting and staring up at the ceiling. Jules and I approached her slowly as the girls who were in the bathroom quickly filed out. 
  “Rue, slow down your breathing,” I said slowly.
  “I...I can’t. You-you could get hurt or something and-and I would know about it an-and I-I couldn’t live with that!” Tears burst from her eyes as Rue began pacing and Jules and I were close but gave her room. 
  “Rue, Y/N is going to be okay, we both know what time she’ll be at the park. If anything happens, we’ll know the area she could be in,” Jules assured her.
  Rue shook her head and stopped in her tracks. Then, she looked between us helplessly before bowing her head and sobbing. Jules and I carefully hugged her and let her cry.
  “I’m sorry that I’m scared and I care about you and I don’t want you to get hurt,” Rue mumbled into my shirt.
  “It’s okay, I appreciate it. I really want to meet Tyler, though, and, I promise I will let you know if something happens, okay?” 
  Rue nodded and sniffled.
   It took Jules about an hour to make me look amazing. I had no idea my hair could be so fluffy and put together until she was done with it. She used eyeliner to make eyes look bigger and rounder and added sparkly lip gloss to make my lips look plumper. After she contoured and highlighted the best places she deemed that her work was done. My outfit, a fitted forest green long-sleeve shirt and fitted black pants with Jadons, was also approved by her.
  “Tell me everything later!” she insisted.
  Rue couldn’t join us since she had “prior commitments” but I texted her that I would let her know when I head to the park and when I leave. My nerves didn’t let me focus on the soccer game my parents insisted I joined them and my brother at. I couldn’t care less that the forward on one team got a yellow card or that the goalie on the other team made illegal blocks. I was practically buzzing with excitement and fear so much that I had to give my pretzel to Y/B/N. Finally, the third quarter arrived and I told my parents that I would meet them at home since I’d promised Lexi that I would help her with some homework. 
  Lexi wouldn’t mind being used for a lie this one time; it was an emergency.
  I tried to practice some calming deep breaths as I walked over to the park. The dark night sky provided a little bit of comfort to my walk. I wondered how different Tyler would look from the picture in my mind. I wondered if he thought I would look any different. Maybe (hopefully) it wouldn’t matter to either of us.
  Finally, I reached the park. It was empty, save for the oak trees scattered throughout the lush green scenery that seemed mysterious under the mooonlight. A few benches and wooden tables were around as well, but, Tyler and I had agreed to meet at the fountain which was further in the park. The breathing exercises had to have helped because I felt much more relaxed and I hoped that everything would go all right. 
   When I got to the fountain, there was a tall person facing it. All I could make out were dark clothes and broad shoulders. I took another deep breath and kept walking.
  “This is a nice spot, you have good taste,” I commented. 
  “I could say the same for you.” I stopped in my tracks as Nate slowly turned to face me. His face was unreadable but his eyes stayed on me. 
  “What? Wh-where’s Tyler?” I asked, my voice already hoarse. 
  Nate glanced down at his shoes. “I’m sorry, I didn’t know how else to talk to you.” 
  I shook my head. “No.” My vision got blurry but I could tell that Nate was looking up at me now. 
  “Just let me explain,” he requested softly. 
  He took a step towards me and I took two steps back .
 “I don’t wanna hear it. This....this is some sick joke to you or something?” 
 “No, never, Y/N, just listen to me.” 
 “I don’t want to!” The tears rolled down my cheeks and I swiped at them so hard that I thought I scratched myself. At least I could feel something because my heart felt numb. “You catfished me!” 
  “I just wanted to talk to you, I really do like you, Y/N. Tyler and I are the same, just different names,” Nate insisted, coming closer.
  For some reason, I didn’t move. I didn’t know if it was from emotional exhaustion or stress, but, I let him approach me. I kept shaking my head. 
  “No,” I hiccuped. 
  “I wanted to meet you tonight because I was tired of lying. I want to figure this, us, out,” Nate said.
  I sniffed. “Us?” 
  At that moment, I could actually see his face and Nate seemed so hopeful. There was a slight smile on his lips and his eyes seemed light for once. Maybe he wanted there to be an “us”. Maybe, despite all logic, he wanted to talk to me seriously and could not do it offline because of his reputation. Maybe, he was over the on-again-off-again situation with Maddy. Maybe, this was my chance, our chance.
  I wiped my face again, mentally cringing at how upset Jules would be for my ruining her masterpiece. 
  “Yeah, us.” Nate stepped closer to me, gently wrapped his arms around my waist, and pulled me into his chest.
  Gradually, my muscles relaxed and I relished in the feeling of his strong upper body and his warmth. Then, I began to feel pressure on my waist and gasped as it intensified. 
  “Nate, you’re...squeezing...too hard,” I rasped out. 
  And he started laughing, no, cackling. As he laughed, his grip tightened and I continued gasping and clawing at everything I could. 
  “Nate...stop!” 
  But he kept laughing and squeezing. When he finally released me, I looked up and saw nothing behind his eyes. Everything in me told me to run, but, I knew he could have easily caught up to me.
  “I really thought you were smarter than that, Y/N. C’mon, you couldn’t honestly think that I would do all this to be with you,” he sneered.
  “So why do it then?” I asked, my voice so small that I could have kicked myself for it. 
  Nate sighed and folded his arms. “Because you made it so easy and, to ask for a favor.” 
  “What? That makes no sense,” I argued. “I told you I owed you one that day you gave me a ride!” 
  “Yeah, well, I needed to make sure that you were available when I needed you.” 
  “Whatever, screw you,” I hissed as I pivoted on my heel. 
  “Too late for you, you’re already screwed.” Nate pulled out a folder from inside his jacket pocket. “Remember those special pictures you sent to Tyler? Well, they count as distribution of child pornography, which has a hefty fine and sentence.” 
   My mouth opened and closed several times before I faced him and responded. “But...but you held them, doesn’t that count towards possession? And, you’re extorting me!” 
  Nate glowered at me and stormed over. “Heresay, no solid evidence for your case. Plus, I’m a Jacobs, so, who are you kidding?” 
   I felt so sick to my stomach that I could have thrown up, fainted, or cried at that moment. This was not real, this could not be real.
   “What do you want?” I asked.
   “Like I said, just be available when I need you.” 
  “Fine.” 
  “Sorry, what was that?” He gripped my chin his hand and forced me to look up at him.
  “Okay,” I said softly.
  “Hmm.” His eyes scanned my face before he released me. “And if I ever hear you judging my relationship with Maddy again, these pictures are going to be the least of your concern.” 
  I nodded weakly, regretting every single thing I ever told him. Nate Jacobs was truly the devil. He wandered off into the night like a centurion leaving a victorious battle. It seemed like he always won. 
  I managed not to start crying until I was on the empty sidewalk. No, I sobbed so bad that my throat went dry. 
  How could I have been so stupid? I should have known it was him that day Maddy yelled at him for texting all day. 
  Stupid, stupid, stupid!
  My sobs continued as I grabbed my phone and texted Rue. 
  Y/N: U were right. 
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EEEEK I JUST FINISHED THE THIRD CHAPTER AND WHAT A DAMN PRISON BREAK IM SPEECHLESS
i had a few predictions as to how they would've broken out, but this certainly took me by surprise. even tho i already knew qnf were breaking out i was still on the edge of my seat, worried that something would go wrong. the ending a little ambiguous tho so maybe something did? george and ranboo's link broke so maybe they ended up in different spots? IDK BUT IM EXCITED NONETHELESS also the parallels between sarah and dr mitchell are fantastic, i feel a little sympathy for dr mitchell but i also completely understand george's resentment towards her. agatha can go fuck herself tho idc
OOH ALSO GEORGE'S PROGRESSION IN HIS CONTROL OVER HIS POWERS IS SO COOL you weren't lying when you said he was overpowered lmao i really love how george has become so in tune with psyche, even tho she can be a bit crazy at times (srsly what is up with that????) altho that's actually a bit interesting now that i think of it. bc psyche is still a part of george, despite seeming to have her own agenda, so does that mean that psyche is an extension of george's subconscious? maybe she's the embodiment of his selfish and cruel desires, we all have a dark side, maybe she's george's. who knows? also why does psyche lowkey remind me of a mom??? she just gives off insane dragon mom vibes ajsiwnsjjffjsj maybe bc shes so protective of george
*chanting* QNF!! QNF!! QNF!! QNF!! sjsinwkdjfskfj the banter. the scheming. the flashbacks. THE USE OF THE WORD KING!!! i love how you incorporate little flashbacks of their interactions within the scenes, it kind of puts into perspective of how much thought quackity put into this plan and gives off a sense of urgency that makes each scene feel so riveting. also, you somehow balance playful humor and seriousness between the two so well.
i am very happy i took spanish as a foreign language class because i can actually understand what quackity is saying lmao
george's sudden protectiveness over ranboo has my heart melting :( poor ranboo especially since he's so young. it seems like ranboo is one of those unlucky individuals who's spent the majority of his life in elysium than out. george mentioned that kids can get admitted into elysium, so ranboo was probably one of them. also, ngl i was not expecting ranboo to be a part of their "ragtag team of misfit EMs" since i associate him with tommy and tubbo so much, so that was definitely a plot twist for me
i have this little headcanon in my head that all of the prisoners (bc that's what they are) have noticeable tan lines on their wrists due to constantly wearing the cuffs (is this just me setting up the potential for angst? possibly)
i just realized that i've just been rambling without actually asking anything oops
what time period does the series take place in? i'm assuming it's very futuristic given the context clues you've provided
is em!george's love for fantasy books derived from cc!george's love for harry potter? or was that just a coincidence. i can't help but imagine tiny george pretending to be a wizard and shouting random spells at dream and sapnap while they were playing manhunt lmao
who would you headcanon as dream's favorite superhero? also, who was his biggest inspiration to become a superhero?
do all bio-e's have the same level of enhancements? bc tommy was depicted as being even faster than dream, so i'm assuming that it varies
do all shifters have permanent physical animal traits (i.e., fundy's fox ears)? you said in one of your previous answers that shifters are outcasted first in society bc they have obvious features that differentiate them from everyone else, but couldn't they just shift back into a full human form and diguise themselves?
who would win in a fight between all of the bergman defenders? my money's on phil because he gives off badass old sensei vibes
speaking of badass characters, who do YOU think is the most badass? not necessarily most powerful (altho ig those two can go hand-in-hand), just who has the coolest vibes basically
which character do you relate to the most, or think is most similar to you? (basically, who do you kin lmao)
how long have EMs been around for? you said they came from radiation and dna experimentation so they couldn't have been around for that long, although i guess that depends on when the series takes place
which character did you have the hardest time developing during the planning process? and which characters do you have the hardest time portraying while writing?
were there any parts that made you especially emotional while writing (i know the introduction to ranboo part tugged on my heartstrings)
quackity mentioned that george was a level 5 patient, is that the highest? and what determines which level you're at? going under the assumption that quackity is meta but not wearing blue cuffs, i'm assuming he's a level 4 at most, so how is it determined? my initial thought was that all metas are level 5 and get blue cuffs due to their higher levels of delta radiation, but in quackity's case that's not true. also, what level are quackity and ranboo at?
lmao this is such a tangential question but what order are the color of the cuffs? quackity said his were yellow, but when dr mitchell lowered george's cuffs they were orange, so i'm assuming each level has their own color.
i'm pretty sure i've asked this before, but i'm not sure if you actually answered it but why do george's eyes glow white? it's such an odd quirk but i love it anyway bc glowy eyes = mega OP (*cough* ranboo *cough*) also whenever you say that george felt a white pressure at his chest, is his chest actually glowing white? that's such a weird question but i'm asking it anyway
i wonder if george has a "reputation" in prison since everyone knows he's a meta, like are they scared of him? is he like one of those prison characters you see on tv who everyone is super intimidated of? has anyone ever accidentally bumped into his shoulder and shit their pants bc "oh no, that's GEORGE, he's the big guy around here" imagine a new patient gets admitted into elysium and everyone tells them to stay away from george bc he's *dangerous* and they expect him to be super buff and have a bunch of tattoos but instead he's just some Guy who looks like a depressed college student during exam week
sometimes i forget that elysium isn't actually a prison, like when i was reading the chapter i kept thinking "why the hell is george not being guarded 24/7???? isn't he supposed to be a prisoner????" like they gave him a HOODIE and quackity can apparently just walk up to his room and bang on the door???? but then i remember that it's supposed to be a rehab facility
how do you balance writing and school? (i'm trying to do that right now and i am FAILING lmao)
just so you know, i literally have a whole notes page dedicated to random thoughts and questions i have about the series lmao most of these questions were just copy and pasted
wow this was really long... thank god tumblr doesn't have a word limit.
ok that's all! (*whispers* i'll be back)
the ending is pretty ambiguous so who knows??? and glad I made the parallels between Sarah and Dr. Mitchell clear! I do think George is being a little harsh on her, though for good reason, my poor king has no trust in people who "want to help him" anymore
it's about time George started getting comfortable with his powers!! your analogy of Psyche as an insane dragon mom is pretty on point! I like to think of Psyche as a personification of George's basic instincts of self-preservation and self-interest. she isn't necessarily just his cruel desires or dark side, but part of that does come with the package. it's kind of like his purest and most primal instincts which are also fed by his subconscious needs--everyone has them, but Psychics, especially powerful ones, have the ability to personify them and without knowing how to "tame" them, they can easily let this side of them overpower them. another analogy I like to use for Psychics: it's like giving a human the abilities of a perfect (moral, all-knowing, unselfish, etc.) divine being without the perfect mind to prevent them from misusing their power
QNF!!! I just love when people use the word king, especially Quackity! they're so fun to write I just love them sm!
besides George feeling bad for the people and kids in Elysium, I like to think George sees a part of himself in Ranboo--obviously George has had it much better, but since they were young, they've both been told by the world that a part of them is inherently evil and deserves entrapment due to how "dangerous" they are
that headcanon is definitely canon now if it wasn't before lol, I can imagine the kids who play outside in the sun and probably have permanent discoloring on their wrists (is that how that works?? prolly not) from how long they've worn those cuffs :(
now for the questions lmaoooo it's ok I started rambling too tbf
yep! the story takes place around a century and a half ahead of our time; though the world isn't the typical sci-fi futuristic that we imagine, it's pretty normal besides a lot of improvements in tech and stuff
yesss! that was totally because of George liking harry potter! idk why that's always been my favorite fun fact about him, idk it just makes sense! and omg George shouting spells at his friends as a kid is the cutest headcanon, I loooove it!!!
Bio-E's don't all have the same level of enhancements, their powers do vary! so Tommy is canonically faster than Dream! guessing he brags about it all the time. most EM's powers do vary, actually, for example, some Geos are probably more driven toward plants while others toward earthquakes, master (high-level) Aquas might be able to control ice, etc
not all shifters have permanent physical animal traits! shifters with visible traits like animal ears, mouths, noses, etc. are actually born that way and they're called hybrids (I'm unoriginal lmaooo), maybe I worded it wrong but it's specifically hybrids who are outcasted because of how they look. most shifters don't actually display physical traits (though they might display certain behavioral traits which are less obvious) and they are just able to morph into animals. also, lower-level shifters might not have full control of their abilities, some of them aren't able to shift at will, so they might not be able to even if they tried. for hybrids though, their full human form is their hybrid form--it's how they were born so they can't really change their ear shape or smt
I honestly don't know who'd win, if they're all fighting each other at once, I imagine Tommy would convince Tubbo to team up against Dream and then try to go against Techno while hoping Phil is distracted fighting Wilbur or smt, but Phil is a master and he's been around for a bit (I make it sound like he's old but he's really not lmaoooo) longer so I feel like he could prolly kick all of their asses in a very strategic way
coolest vibes? Quackity! he looks like just a goofball on the outside but my man is secretly a genius and master manipulator along with being able to hide his powers from everyone, he SHOULD be feared! reminds me of c!Quackity in early dsmp vs c!Quackity in the present
im basic but it's literally just AL!George, sometimes I got too carried away writing those scenes where he'd like lose control--especially that one mirror scene in one of the middle chapters--that I'd step back and remember im not supposed to be projecting all my past mental issues onto him lmaoooo
EMs would've first appeared around the 2000s of our timeline, so they're been around for almost 150-200 years prolly? not too long honestly
SCHLATT 100% was the hardest one to develop. can't fully explain why because I feel like I'll accidentally spoil smt, but let's just say he had me tearing my hair out for half-a-month that I spent last semester avoiding working on this story. hardest to portray? surprisingly, it's Karl. I dont know why I have a little bit of a hard time portraying him sometimes, but especially his dialogue takes me a bit longer to develop than other characters
this wasn't exactly a it made me sentimental thing, more like I just experienced some very strong emotions on many levels writing it but the lines “This isn’t an issue of politics. It’s scientific technology undergoing testing.” // He hummed. “My existence shouldn’t be an issue of politics.” made me punch my palm so hard because I loved the line so much because I've always considered it SO TRUE for so many of the "political" issues in the USA, for example, why were/are gay rights ever a "political" issue? you're literally calling a person's existence a political issue. and as a DACAmented student, I used to get really fired up seeing people argue about whether I deserved to be in this country or not for being brought in against my will as a child, though these days I'm over it lol
level 5 is the highest level of patients in the general facility, for Unit Zero, they call them level S's but they can't call George that cause they obviously don't want to out themselves. danger and power level determines the level a patient is admitted at! it goes from level 1-5 and from lowest to highest colors it's white(1), green(2), yellow(3), orange(4), blue(5/S). Elysium is under the impression that Quackity is just a normal multi-shifter, meaning he's just able to morph into a lot of animals, but they have no idea he can morph into people, otherwise he'd 100% be in Unit Zero. he's also not considered very dangerous, so it's why he's in Elysium but he doesn't have level 5 status, he's just a level 3. Ranboo is level S, so his cuffs are blue!
tbh I dont remember what I answered last time, I think I just said it was a stylistic choice, there's no special reason, it's just to differentiate George when he's in ultra fired up Psychic mode and George the depressed college guy during exam week (THAT DESCRIPTION IS LITERALLY PERFECT THAT WHOLE THEORY IS NOW MY HEADCANON ((does that mean it's canon? idk smts I just pretend im a reader of this story and not the writer)))
LMAOOO! literally everyone forgets he's not in prison seeing as everyone calls Elysium prison when they write comments or tweets or send asks haha
how do I balance writing and school? easy! I dont :D I miss meals and sleep and have no social life (im half kidding please dont do that it's bad for your health lmao). I cant explain it but I write SO MUCH MORE during the semester than during breaks. I have this thing where I love to whine about being so busy but I dont like not being busy and im also stubborn as hell (last semester my friend tried to tell me doing nano would be too much since I barely even had time to eat dinner so I fixed my eating and studying schedule and made time to write solely to prove her wrong). I get really annoyed when I have a lot of worked and no time for myself, so I use my homework and studying as motivation to get to the end of the day and work on usually just one scene (it's all I really have the energy for since I spend like an hour trying to make it good during the 2nd draft)
that is literally amazing, it legitimately baffles me to hear that because it's hard to remember people enjoy this story that much lol, so thank you for letting me know! they're the kind of comments I remember when im feeling unmotivated :]
this answer was also super long lmao so I apologize, I get carried away sometimes :D ty for the ask! I loooove reading through these very long ones! they're always so fun to go through
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hood is just, perfect. reading those 100 chapters were so much fun. it is the best smau i have read yet! truly, i love it so much. first of all, i'd like to point out the hilarious things i found in the profiles chapter. i love how sunwoo's username is "thesunrises" and his bio being "when i start rapping" LMAO plus juyeon's tweet in the same chapter reminds me of chan's "do you know what else is big? my feet." it was hard silencing my laugh, especially since it was around early morning and everybody else living in the house is asleep. the concept that hood is not one, but 3 entities, is really cool. it legit felt like i was watching a movie.
i'm really happy with the endgame, bias things ig ✨ the pictures of changmin that you used for the tweets were really 😌👌 changmin shy trope is now my favourite. i promise, you won't be able to imagine the many times that fic made me flustered. when he straight up confessed, omaygad. at first, i thought reader would end up with younghoon. but reading their first conversation with changmin after many many years of not talking (?) , I PROMISE YOU, I FELT IT. i felt the changmin endgame mate.
i'm going to rant about changmin's character just bc. HE'S ADORABLE!!!!! changmin trying to find out hood's real identity for reader is so cute huhu. and the part where he got jealous of sunwoo bc reader and him kept on calling each other 'baby' just for funs, really got me screaming. that was my favourite part, i honestly don't know why. maybe bc i'm a sucker for jealousy leads or bc that's when changmin accepted his own feeling. idk lmfao. as much as how i love his simp-like (??) tendencies, i adore the fact that he stood up for himself at the end when he felt like he wasn't trusted by reader. it just shows that as much as he cares for them, he has self-love and respect, sum shit like that. anyways, i like their (reader and changmin) relationship. they can comfortably talk out any problems lol. v v v v v cute.
reader's character is just 🙇👑. i love how determined they are about their goals. the robin hood idea is just wow. i love how they were set on in exposing the academy's dark side even though they knew how much trouble they are getting into. just, mad respect. the thought itself seems reckless but how are we going to achieve success if we don't take risks? i just love love love love them. periodt. plus the fact that they were ready for any consequences is just 👌👌👌.
younghoon is so clever in thinking of using sharpie to hide the notes. like omg. kinda dumb if you were supposed to you know, 'not get caught' BUT SINCE THAT'S NOT HIS PLAN, i just pure adoration for him please. it really was insensitive of reader at the end when they asked younghoon to help with the 'sending president kim to jail' scheme. it's still his father after all (add the fact that reader literally apologized and thanked every single character individually to the 13 reasons why i love reader). but, he thought rationally and that's why the plan succeeded. younghoon is king. happy for him that he gets to pursue music <333
eric and sunwoo deserves the best best best friend award, like seriously. i cannot get over the 3's friendship, they are wholesome af. eric and sunwoo might be my favourite characters in the series huhu. hyunjae was surprisingly perceptive. his character is the most hilarious one LMFAO also haknyeon, like wtf. he's smart. if reader didn't end up with changmin, might have shipped them with haknyeon LOL chanhee is such a mood every damn time. i love him too. I LOVE ALL OF THEM. anyways, shout out to kevin, jacob, juyeon, and sangyeon :">>
srsly cannot imagine how long this series took you ! it's not even finish yet aaaaaa i'm excited for the upcoming specials hehe. thanks for the nice read, really. read it all in one sitting. i hope you have a great day! good luck to any future projects, will be binge-reading your works once school gets off my back :">>
wow anon thank you so much for reading and enjoying hood!! this seriously made my day and I am so so happy that you came here to tell me what you thought about something I feel like I lost blood sweat and tears for. even though I've stepped a bit back from writing for the last month, I too am really excited to put out the special oneshots/blurbs for all my beloved hood characters! thank you again, and I hope your schoolwork goes well 💕
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14. Unpopular opinion about your fandom? For Undertale? :0
Helluu UwU ❤ sorry for the wait, ended up way too tired last night to reply properly and then I been working on stuff today, but here goes!
14. Unpopular opinion about your fandom?
Dunno if this one is unpopular but like please stop misgendering Napstablook and Monster kid xD they are both they/them and further proof of that is how Blooky was called only by they/them in the alarm clock dialogue thing we got awhile ago! Which made me really happy to see as it only further cemented the fact they go by they/them! And MK doesn’t get called by any other pronouns in the game than they/them and I wish ppl could stop, like yes mistakes can happen when you accidently do it but gods I wish ppl would get better at it xD
Likewise with Frisk and Chara, though I have mostly given up caring there since like it’s so far gone now since ppl keep making them into their own like little inserts into the game, for shipping etc, even though the whole point with Frisk is that they are their own person and not you or your own character. Likewise with Kris from Deltarune, they are they/them, they are their own character the one you literally create at the start of the game gets tossed into the trash because Kris is their own person, just please don’t do a Frisk and Chara there too, it makes me pissed af xD
Also all the like shipping drama that happens time to time, like I don’t care what you ship as long as you properly tag it so ppl can blacklist it etc. Like hey it’s completely ok not to like fontcäst or fr*ns etc, and it’s completely ok to like it as well, either way I support you! But this constant like need for ppl to send hate to ppl who enjoy such ships, telling them how this is p*do stuff and fucked up, ppl doing so is what is fucked up because you can literally just go the fuck away and block the ppl, the tags and so on and move the fuck on! It’s so easy, you don’t have to enjoy it, just leave people the fuck alone man xD I miss the older fandom days when ppl were all like “this isn’t my thing but you do you” and then moved the fuck on
Not to mention how many ppl I have seen in their bio’s telling ppl who ship those things to die like srsly wth is wrong with you, you’re the one who needs help between the two of us gkjegkje
And lastly before I end up writing like 24 pages of me just ranting, the whole babyfying of Papyrus, I know it’s like stuck from the early days of this fandom but gods it’s the absolute worst! Same when it happens to swap sans too, like holy shit I just can’t stand it and I am happy to see with the part of the fandom I am in how pretty much all my friends and mutuals or ppl I follow agree with me there because it’s just so bad, so bad to turn them into literal children mentally and then have their brothers treat them as if they were 5 years old when they are flipping adults! Or make them so stupid that they don’t even know what sex is like gods just please stop xD 
But that’s all ya get, I also prolly worded shit weirdly or badly but it will do pft! But overall the fandom is great, I never been this active or spent this long been active in a fandom before like this, I love it so much and I don’t think I will leave for a very very long time, nothing else have caught my interest like this before, and while the fandom can make me go absolutely mad at times, so would I not want to leave as there is too much good stuff here that I enjoy and love ❤  
I also realised that these might not actually be unpopular opinion of the fandom but it will do pft
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bigskydreaming · 5 years ago
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fhalkfhaklfhlkak i hate this
TW really truly literally ruined the word ‘spark’ for me. Like the whole damn word. I hear it now and I’m like, NOPE, like...idk, some people who cringe when they hear the word moist or panties. Apologies to anyone who hates those words and cringed, i dont actually know if thats a thing or if like, I just have weird friends. Probably just the latter.
But anyways, Im just like...lmfao. Its so visceral too? Like I have this one original project, Waveriders, that I’ve been fiddling with off and on in the background of other projects for awhile, might have talked about it on here, idk, I don’t keep track. 
Basically its a far future sci-fi novel/setting for linked shorter works set on a gas giant that was settled by humans who figured that they can’t possibly be stepping on anyone’s toes there, its a freaking gas giant, hello, no one’s home, right? They literally have to make their own ground by using technology to form anti-gravity wells in the habitable zone of the atmosphere and like, make floating cities and then these kind of buoys scattered across the planet that create these electromagnetic currents that flow in specific ‘routes’ between the cities, and people travel between them in these flying ships that use magnetized hulls and solar sails to ride these currents, and blah blah blah, yada yada yada, bc like, why would I resist an opportunity to have floating cities and sky pirates and ancient cyborg machine dragons? Doesn’t make sense. 
Anyway, so couple thousand years after settling this planet, and by then for Plotty Reasons there are people who have what’s called waveriding abilities, like they can ‘hack’ certain wavelengths or types of energy and manipulate them in various ways, but only one kind of energy per person, and they each have their own little names and niches. 
So, y’know, basically just like ATLA, except for like, its energy powers and there are cyborg machine dragons and floating cities and sky pirates, obvsly. Plus areas of totally fucked up gravity called the badlands that are all like, criminal underworld metropolis because normal people are like lol nope, we like it when up is up and down is down, all of this is very just...nope. And also because shocking and totally unexpected plot twist, they were totally wrong about the planet being uninhabited just cuz it didn’t have Earth type ground...like, so in addition and on top of and in conjunction with all of the above and whatnot, there are these beings called Chaos Angels, that are basically like sentient quantum waveforms that can take any shape or appearance, but just, have no physical substance and yet are really good at faking that they’re not totally there when they fuck with humans, which they do a lot, because well. Why not, y’know?
But other than that, its exactly like ATLA. I’m a derivative hack. I disgust myself, truly I do.
BUT the point of this particular synaptic misfire aka ADHD ramble, is that so, okay, these different types of not!benders are all called waveriders as an overall umbrella term, but with ten different subsets of this in total, right? So people who can ‘hack’ light and manipulate it in various ways are called brightriders, and people who are tuned into soundwaves are called echo-riders, and some can manipulate the more electricity-skewed side of the electromagnetic spectrum and those are shockriders and the ones who skew more to the magnetic side are steelriders but I’m probably gonna change that because it sounds like a porno? Yeah no, just saw it outside of my notes for the first time and can confirm, definitely sounds like a porno so they’re not gonna be called steel-riders, but they will be called something steel-rider-esque. You get it.
And then there are the five weird ones that people aren’t totally quite sure how their waveriding shticks work because the kinds of energy they hack aren’t like....the kinds that work in the same way as the others with their easily discernible and patternistic wavelengths, and scientists and scholars are always arguing like but skyriders aren’t even in the same FIELD as the other waverider types because gravity isn’t even an actual ENERGY, just because we talk about gravity waves doesn’t mean they’re remotely the same thing as lightwaves, they make no SENSE, and I’m just like hahaha, I am your god, fictional scientists. Fucking deal with it. Plus it does make sense, you just don’t know the Secret Rules and Logistics that I do, pfft. 
Anyway, so the other types are boomriders who hack kinetic energy and skyriders of course obviously manipulate gravity, and then the last three are really weird, and super rare and thus don’t really have set names and just have lots of nicknames and are often just thought to be rumors. So those are the bio-riders who manipulate chemical energy though it often gets mistakenly referred to or just handwaved as being ‘life energy’ as though that’s a thing, ugh future way advanced people are so dumb sometimes, honestly. But so they can manipulate biological processes in various ways and do things with healing and also hurting, and basically just don���t piss one off ever. Like. You’ll die. And then there’s the psi-riders, who are essentially psychics and hack brainwaves, and I’m not at all bitter that I lack the balls to just go for broke and call them ghost riders like I want to, because ghost riders obviously sounds way cooler?? But also, Marvel would definitely sue?? Because they’re just, like that. 
And like, the last of the Weird Ones are the ones so super rare and also so hard to actually....tell if someone actually IS one, that most people think they don’t actually even exist and are just an unsubstantiated like, theoretical idea some scientist had once while high and then just, never shut up about so eventually the idea caught on. And those are the quantum-riders, or luck-riders, basically they theoretically manipulate quantum wavelengths in ways that are almost impossible to identify, like theoretically they wouldn’t even know they were doing it? Anyway, so lots of times, what are actually quantum-riders are just jealously thought to be like, really fucking lucky assholes. Even though the way their powers work really don’t have anything to do with luck or even probability, specifically, like that’s a simplistic approximation and its more like they manipulate possibilities but also shut up me, nobody cares.
ANYWAY, people who can count and who actually bothered to would probably notice by now like the funky little geniuses they are that all of those still only adds up to nine. And that’s because of the last one, the one that SHOULD go up in the brightrider, shockrider, notpornIswear!steel-rider hierarchy or taxidermy or whatever the fuck. And these are the ones who manipulate what’s essentially thermal energy, or more accurately the microwave-skewing side of the ultraviolet spectrum whereas brightriders are just the ones who skew more to the infrared side of it.
And the long and short of all of this Unnecessary-ness and the source of my fit of pique and ensuing ramble-palooza....is that ORIGINALLY, they were SUPPOSED to be called sparkriders.
But OBVIOUSLY I can’t call them that anymore, because like. I tried, and I was like ugh you drama queen slash whiny pissbaby, it was just a shitty teen supernatural show and SPARK WAS NEVER EVEN CANON, do not let THEM win and ruin a perfectly good classification name! But I did. I did let it ruin them, and its. Well. Its a problem, because I kept thinking up ways to kill off the sparkrider characters for absolutely no reason at all instead of like....thinking up ways to make the plot do what it was outlined to do in their parts of the story.
This may come like, way out of left field, and just SHOCK and STUN and BEWILDER some of you, like....no way, srsly? But yeah, true story, among my many canon mental neuroses like ADHD, PTSD, magical depression hour and super fun anxiety like....there is a tiny possibility (aka actual diagnosis) that while I don’t talk about this much, or ever really, I do have a smidge of ye old OCD? Its not like, a big thing and doesn’t really affect my daily routines and that’s pretty much why I never usually bring it up or list it alongside the rest of the crap on my neurodivergence resumé or whatever, because like, there’s already WAY too many misconceptions out there about what OCD actually is and what constitutes it, and tons of people are always jokingly but also thinking they’re kinda half serious, like ‘oh I’m so OCD about this and this and that’ and its like. LOL. Are you though? You sure?
Anyway, but point being, the way mine manifests for me is like...not actually a problem? Like, I don’t actually have any REAL complaints about it at all, just half-assed little fits of pique ones like this, which is the other part of why I never bring it up, because too often ppl just can’t fathom that OCD or even any kind of neurodivergence can be...WANTED, or a good thing, and lololol, that’s ableism, folks. But its true, I don’t actually mind mine at all, even if it occasionally makes things frustrating, when I get stuck like I am now. But the flip side of it is....its actually a pretty huge part of my creativity and just the way my mind works in general....like, what people accredit to me being particularly insightful about character analysis or drawing connections or stuff like that in meta or fics or my novels or worldbuilding...that’s what it is. That’s my OCD in action. 
My brain like...REQUIRES that I find patterns in....pretty much everything. Even day to day mundane stuff too, though like I said, its mild enough there that it doesn’t fuck with my routines too much, but like, I have to order things into nice, neat patterns and groupings. And if there aren’t any that are immediately obvious, I kinda pretty much HAVE to dig deeper until I find some on a slightly deeper level, something beneath the surface or first glance, and keep going until I find something.....or worst case scenario, I have to like....add stuff and embellish and fill in gaps with my own ‘content’ until I have the rough edges rounded off into something that CAN be stacked neatly atop some other part of the story or whatever it is I’m focusing on? And the obsessive-compulsive part for me is like, lol, I gotta find it SOMEWHERE, SOMEHOW. 
My brain literally won’t shut off or grudgingly accept being diverted to a different subject until I’ve made some kind of pattern or flowchart or classification system. It will literally keep me up for hours, going over the same things over and over from every angle until I find SOME way to....reassemble or restructure it in some nice, neat little order of some type. I mean that’s basically what it is. My brain insists on me forming some semblance of order out of any glimpse I have of what I would otherwise term creative chaos. And it won’t give up until it gets what it wants, which when you throw in my ADHD and how often I’ll get derailed off on slight tangents but with my OCD then sooner or later forcing me back to the original focus, rinse and repeat ad nauseam....like. LOL. I learned to operate on very little sleep from a pretty young age by necessity, its just...my brain, dudes. Its just like that.
But the perks are like, I pretty much think this is WHY I’m so creative....because my brain, for as long as I can remember, has always just kinda....forced me to be? Also probably has a lot to do with well...eh, I don’t need to talk about that right now. Whatever. Anyway, point being, so....I do like the end results very much so, and for all its....Why Must You Be Like This eccentricities, I’m quite attached to my brain and would not be very likely to agree to a trade even were one possible. I mean don’t get me wrong, I could do without the PTSD and anxiety, if we’re just, like....talking some pruning shears or whatever, but the actual creative machinery, I’m keeping. Ultimately it just means I really fucking like patterns and finding patterns or making patterns where previously there were none, or at least none that were easy to spot.
But ugh, man, these are the rare times when I’m like omg, just call it a day, we don’t ACTUALLY have to come up with the perfect replacement name for that one relatively small and insignificant detail of a much larger story that isn’t even in the Top Ten list of my main priorities at the moment. And my asshole of a brain is just like....yeah no, we gotta. You know the rules dude, you decided it was official, that name didn’t work anymore and was never gonna, so now we gotta find a replacement or else things will be UNEVEN?? The pattern will be...missing a piece? There will be CHAOS AND ANARCHY IN THE STREETS THAT RUNNETH OVER WITH BLOOD? IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT??
And so I’m like....literally sitting here googling synonyms for spark because I’m just like that sometimes, lmfao. Oh and of course its gotta be a GOOD replacement, naturally. I can’t just shoehorn in a somewhat acceptable substitute that in the back of my mind I’m expecting to only be temporary, until I come up with something better. See, because my brain will KNOW, and it will NOT be okay with that, because that is CHEATING. And my brain, apparently, has strong feelings about cheating, which is weird and fairly unexpected of me, IMO.
Anyway, kudos to anyone who actually read through that instead of scrolling, I honestly have zero idea why I felt like sharing it, I just did and thus I did. *shrugs* 
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helenhuntingdon · 6 years ago
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@ Anon who asked about Eifion backstory! 
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I was like where did you hear of Eifion being problematic??? Then I realised it may have been from me......
So yeah I can try to breakdown everything I remember but it’s been 10-11 years so I couldn’t go through everything, or remember everything! And remember, I am an unreliable narrator!!!
But basically:
>He arrived in 2007 as Cadno’s rogueish bad boy boyfriend then was a regular from 2008? Basically early sl was them settling down on the farm (living with previous/joint owners Eileen and her ex Denzil, and their teen daughter Sioned, which will be relevant later~) You can see some of that here but without subtitles! But basically, dead cow alert! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYi6B6nelcU&t=4899s And then Eifion was depressed like I said~ They also had their first son! Cadno had had a miscarriage previously to that.
>Tbh you could read what I already wrote lol https://archiveofourown.org/works/15213248/chapters/35283857
>THEN Eifion fully lost his mind and so did the writers and he had an affair with Sioned, Cadno’s younger cousin. (I think she was about 20 then, 5 years ago?) It was creepy and happened in the same house and Cadno and was the lowest low point!!! Then Cadno found out she was pregnant with their second son after she found out about the affair - Eifion didn’t get to see their second son for like a month after he was born! 
>At some point Cadno left with the baby and got close to Gwyneth, main bisexual of the village lol. They ACTUALLY had a bit of a thing, snogged at the least! (Eifion wasn’t best pleased.) But Cadno decided she had to leave the village entirely and did for a bit (with the baby, who was then kidnapped by Iolo’s brother Macs, hm.) 
>Eifion got with Angela, blond nurse who ended up being Sioned’s sister (she was put up for adoption) and they were boring and selfish together lol. Eifion w/ Angela fought w/ Cadno, Angela wanted to do glamping??? on the farm, Cadno wanted Eifion to get a vasectomy so neither of them would have more children (Angela was pissed) but while Cadno got sterilized, Eifion chickened out of getting the vasectomy lol (Angela was still pissed!) They moved in together off the farm, with Angela’s daughter, and Eifion was a traffic warden so not the most likeable still yet lol. (Also Eifion pretending he was hurt lol? for money from Dai. Was found out when Angela threw a rugby ball at him in the pub lol.)
>Then Angela decided she wasn’t getting enough attention from him and decided she had a brain aneurysm! She’d been fainting and Eifion was worried about her symptoms but she was diagnosed w/ anaemia and then felt like Eifion wasn’t worried enough about her any more! So was like no actually I have a brain aneurysm I COULD DIE. Eifion proposed to her but she was worried it was just bc she was dying (which she wasn’t and it was) but he proposed again and I think they got married in Las Vegas????? (Bc not wanting someone to die = love) She got money from the village as well so she was pretty hated when it came out, as was Eifion but he insisted he’d also been lied to (and he had been!) Eifion left her and then she left. 
>Angela’s daughter Courtney, now Eifion’s step-daughter, stayed with Eifion and they’d gotten close! They bonded over Angela having lied to them both basically. (Fave interaction between them: Eifion: You know what I did when I thought your mother was sick? I gave people more tickets - even when they didn’t deserve them. Courtney: Eifion that’s terrible!) Eifion bought her her first car and it was covered in flower pattern it was so cute! Then she crashed the car into Tylo’s wedding and died RIP! See Tylo’s wedding for that and Eifion yelling her name at the end! 
>So there was some mourning period there, he saw her body at the hospital with Eileen (being her grandmother). It was discovered that Courtney had been pregnant and her bio dad and other people who hated Eifion decided he must’ve got her pregnant (DJ, Cadno’s boyfriend and Gaynor, the school headmistress, who Eifion dated for a short time disastruously - tho I think that was a comedy thing bc the Eifion and Gaynor actors are married irl!) but obviously he hadn’t yikes! She had a (teen!) boyfriend and hadn’t told her dad but still Eifion was banned from her funeral :( (In the end, they made up and everyone knew who the baby’s father really would’ve been.) Angela returned for a bit as well and she and Eifion decided to get a divorce bc their whole relationship had been a mistake and he should’ve stayed with Cadno! 
>(I kind of headcanon that at this point when Eifion was living alone then, in the house where he had lived with Angela and Courtney RIP, he could’ve been sleeping with men! This was like a couple of years ago~) 
>But Eifion was back at the farm when Cadno had an accident (her farmy boyfriend reversed a tractor over her, ow!) and he took care of her but kind of drove off her boyfriend as well (he was going to propose to her but imo if he couldn’t handle taking care of Cadno and her 2 sons after her accident, that’s his problem). Eifion and Cadno actually had a good friendship for a little bit, while maturely being parents to their sons - he was slightly scheming to get back on the farm tho lol. Cadno’s boyfriend did come back and propose and she eventually accepted and kicked Eifion back out - but when they were getting married, Eifion told her that they belonged together~ And Cadno didn’t marry him but told Eifion to fuck off afterwards bc she’d just not been ready to get married! But after a little bit they finally got back together, at the start of 2017, bc they’d both changed ~apparently~ and Cadno believed Eifion had done well on his own, been a good step father and was a good father now (redemption??? hmm)
>Next significant storyline I guess was Eifion and Tyler fighting? At the time was because Eifion’s younger (second???) cousin Mathew had had an affair with Tyler’s sister Dani but in hindsight was it bc of gay tension??? Hmm. Or can be retconned that way lol. You can watch that in the Tylo sl as well and lbr do I have a playlist of all/most of Eifion scenes that are on yt? yes. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLKakjRzUXEOfdR-daGxBLk871-VY4ypvG
>That led into someone overhearing Cadno and Eifion discussing that she helped her ex’s mother die (he was basically saying he admired her for what she’d done, after having said less nice things) and she got arrested, leading to legal fees, leading to that meat plot I badly described earlier lol http://helenhuntingdon.tumblr.com/post/176350294204/what-exactly-did-eifion-do-that-led-to-him-and
>He then scarpered for 3 weeks in Swansea (where he maybe??? met Alun???) then since returning has just been adjusting to his new life living above a shop lol? I’ve giffed some scenes from then and may gif some more so just see here lol (and I would also watch scenes from Tylo’s sl with Alun and Iolo for Alun talking about his relationship with ‘John’ if you haven’t!) https://helenhuntingdon.tumblr.com/tagged/eifion+rowlands 
In conclusion lol, 
This may not be all accurate and obviously can’t include EVERYTHING that’s ever happened to his character and in his storyline but
he was more of a bad boy than a villain originally and never fully became a villain! His early depression sl I still remember bc it was a good sl! Has maybe been sneaky, selfish most of all, made terrible life choices, takes the easy way out, etc. but from his srsly lowest point of having an affair with Sioned, he’s gotten steadily less terrible lol, was kind of just a ridiculous character for a few years but was a better person from his relationship with Courtney, became a better father, changed when he was with Angela perhaps and to get back with Cadno (taking care of her!) and while he’s been with Cadno he’s been better than he was before! 
BUT he still is having an affair and lied to Alun AND Cadno so ofc he’s problematic lol! But he’s a more sympathetic (problematic asshole) than he was and this kind of makes his character more consistent than he had been for a while? In a retconny way but it makes sense to me looking at his whole sl, his previous issues, his inconsistencies as a person! 
Will Eifion EVER make good life choices????? We will wait and see ;; 
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franeridart · 8 years ago
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what is your opinion on mineta?
A pretty neutral one? I don’t like him, but I don’t actively dislike him either since his type of character is just something I’m assuming Jump editors outright ask for considering they’re in every single shounen ever - mostly I just forget he exists tbh, which is rude but he’s really rude too so that’s fine lol he has his moments and I’m very lowkey hoping he’ll be developed and grow out of the walking trope he is (it’s just wishful thinking, probably)(I appreciate that Horikoshi writes his behaviour as something as disgusting as it is, tho, kudos to you Horikoshi) but as things stand right now I mostly roll my eyes at him and forget he’s a thing the moment he walks off screen haha
Anon said:I. LOVE. SHINSO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO DO I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anon said:What did you think of the little todoiideku moments in the last chapter? :)
I CRIED literally, actual tears, I’m not making it up I love all three of them so much - Iida’s the most precious boy ever and Todoroki is wise and beautiful and them all offering food to Izuku to make him feel better was PURE 
but also waddup with Izuku suddenly saying he shouldn’t cry, he’s been crying since the beginning of the manga? It’s okay Izuku let it out
Anon said:how do you emotion
That depends on the emotion and what you want to do with it! How do you deal with it? How do you express it? How do you portray it? So many possibilities!
Anon said:That face Kaminari made when Bakugou called him stupid. My babyyyy
IT’S OKAY NARI HE DOESN’T MEAN IT okay he does but he’s just like that he probably just doesn’t remember your name - wait that’s making it worse isn’t it h e c k
Okay seriously tho have you ever noticed how the Baku/Kami interactions are weirdly similar to the Jirou/Kami ones it makes me laugh a lot why are your friends like that Kaminari why do you like them like that you masochistic bean
Anon said:I just want to say that I love your art. And the way you draw the one a kids makes my heart burst with overwhelming joy. It just makes my day to see them interact. Thank you for existing.
BOI ANON thank you for existing this is such a good ask thank you so so so much!!!!
Anon said:Hey! I thibk the english expression im looking for is wish you well! i hope you feel better, try to take care!! And i hope the rest of your day is better
Your English is more than fine and anyway I’m not native either so don’t worry about it!! And THANK YOU!!!! 
Anon said:I sent a message a while ago saying I had caught up with the BnHA manga when I had a concussion and your post about Baku and Kiri fighting made me realize Kiri's quirk woulda been damn nice to have when my partner threw me off of the mat. Why didn't I realize it before. Honestly it'd be super helpful in so many aspects of judo (that's how I got the concussion whoops) because he could like. Harden his neck and not get choked. Damn.
Haha yeah that’s why he’s good at what he does, isn’t it! It always felt weird to me in how little consideration Kirishima keeps his quirk, that’s, like, the best quirk a protector (aka an hero) could ever wish for, it’s so good keep your chin up nerd you’re the best !!!!!! ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ
Anon said:Do people always demand art from you? That's ridiculous, and I'm so sorry people don't have any manners.
Ahhhhhhhhhhh this is such a sweet ask, thank you so much anon! But it’s fine, if I don’t like the tone in which stuff has been asked of me I just don’t draw it! And I do have “suggestions are fine” written in my bio after all, so it’s not like I mind people asking as long as they remember I don’t promise anything haha
Anon said:am in love I can't. I love ur style really much especially how u draw Kacchan. srsly u are the rare ppl who draws him perfectly! also I love dat Kuroo icon u have
GOSH thank you!!! so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *O* I’m so so happy you like how I draw him!!!!! AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anon said:Are there any other couples who have fascinations with each other's hands? (I would be thrilled if kyoutani had a thing for yahaba's)
Oops, sorry anon but the hand thing for me is something specific to the KiriBaku - I mean, it’s not like I can’t see anyone else with a fascination of that kind, but in the bnha manga Bakugou actually held Kirishima’s hand in a pretty important moment (the chapter was literally called “Taking his hand” I c r y) so now every time I think about hands my first reaction is bakushima and I kind of get stuck there SO applying it to other ships probably isn’t happening any time soon haha
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asiryn · 8 years ago
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@lesbiankairi
I figured that I’d make a separate post to reply to your replies, to try to make having a chat a bit more streamlined (*side-eyes tumblr*) XD
First off, it’s totally no problem at all! I love talking/ranting about KH, it’s definitely a fandom/series that’s close to my heart, so I’m always up for chatting about, so don’t ever feel bad about getting stuff off your chest. Srsly, any time is alright with me! ^^ (I mean, I’m absolutely taking this chance to rant/talk about KH for all that it’s worth too XP)
About Aqua, the intention of my post was that I just wanted to clarify that I could kind of see how others (and not you, necessarily) could read her storyline as being, in a sense, “fridged” by her male friends, and I wanted to offer up an alternative reading, bc as I said, I see it more as she’s the Sora figure, and she is of course being anything but passive in the Realm of Darkness. But those troubling elements are still there, and in the series as a whole when it comes to gender, so I didn’t mean it as a criticism of ppl who find Aqua’s part in the narrative to be iffy. (I....have quite a bit of low-key social anxiety, so I just wanted to further clarify a bit XD) I’m sorry that you feel a bit forced in any way, tho :/
Yeah....my problems with Aqua aren’t even really anything about her as a character, and I definitely don’t see it as being her fault, and I’m not, like, mad at her about it. There’s just....that one scene I mentioned, where I think the writers spectacularly dropped the ball, and unfortunately, Aqua’s character suffered the most from it, imo. There’s really only a handful of the KH characters I truly dislike (....most of them being the Lightside mentors, which I think I’m garnering a bit of a reputation for openly hating them XD); the rest of the time, I’m more mad at the writers than at the characters. 
Oh man, I totally get your Kairi feels. Her canon mistreatment is my biggest peeve with the series, lol, I’m so mad that at pretty much every turn, she’s shafted, especially in comparison to all of the other characters. And like.....I do not understand why!!! Bc Nomura or whoever the hell, has shown that he/they CAN do it better, at least, but they just....don’t, with Kairi, and I just don’t fucking get it. Like, she’s either shafted out of existence, or when she is there, it’s just for all of that forced SoKai nonsense, but even then, she’s still not developed, and she still barely gets any agency. And it’s especially galling, bc she’s supposed to be a part of the MAIN TRIO. Even if she can’t be on the same tier as Sora, who’s the main character of the series, she should still at least be on par with Riku, but....she isn’t anywhere close to that. I’d argue that Riku’s gotten the most development of the series, and with KH3D he’s practically a dual protagonist with Sora now, whereas Kairi, even tho she’s supposed to be Sora’s ~love interest~, is the LEAST developed. So, yeah, I totally get you. XD
And I think there’s nothing wrong with trying to reclaim Kairi, she definitely needs it. Especially since you’re still very aware of the enormous disservice that canon is doing to her, and you’re....idk, very aware of what you’re doing and why you’re doing it, you know? Bc like, while I want to see Kairi get more love and support, I also don’t want ppl to just forget or act like there’s nothing wrong with her in canon. And when I talk critically about Kairi in canon, I want ppl to remember that my problem is with the WRITING behind her, and not the character herself. (This isn’t particularly aimed at you, just something that’s happened in the past :/) And.....idk. I also think that wanting better for one character doesn’t mean that I want that at the expense of others, you know? Maybe it doesn’t happen as much now, idk (nowadays, I tend to be more...selective, about who I talk KH with XD), but I remember back in my earlier fandom days, it was like if you were a fan of one girl (Kairi, Namine, and Xion, most especially), that meant you had to HATE the others (I think this was mostly among the het shippers, and went hand-in-hand with their ship wars over the big het ships), and like, if you wanted better for Kairi, that meant it had to come at the expense of Namine, or whatever. :////
Anyway, my point is, I get it. XD And I don’t think it’s bad to be devoted to a particular character, or to want better for them. Just.....remember to keep it from tipping over the line to being at the expense of others, you know? (I don’t think you’ve done this, from what I’ve seen of you since I followed you, but it’s always good to keep in mind, anyway.)
Okay, I’ve been rambling long enough. XDD Thanks for following me, glad you liked that meta (there’s other parts to it, if you’re curious), and if you want more of my kh opinions and don’t feel up to long-winded conversations, you can check out this link: http://asiryn.tumblr.com/tagged/kiryn-plays-kingdom-hearts
But srsly, I am down to talking about KH whenever. Hope to hear from you soon! Btw, out of curiosity, what KH games have you played? (Not judging, just wanted to know, I don’t think you say in your about/bio or whatever?)
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thisiswhatwereupagainst · 8 years ago
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This is something I really think needs to be talked about: Nightcrawler is a victim of incest/rape. It’s not acknowledged by the comics for what it is, and when I see it acknowledged by fandom, it’s talked about as being icky in terms of the incest part (but also not treated as being “really” incest) but the rape issue is never recognized. It’s not seen as being that by the comics or by the fans. But it absolutely was. And that needs to be talked about. I’m going to put this under a cut, because obviously this could be triggering for folks:
Ok, so Nightcrawler was born looking the way he does, and the pain of childbirth also made Mystique unable to keep her human disguise up. An angry mob formed and in order to save her own skin, Mystique tossed baby Kurt over a goddamn waterfall. He survived (general fan theory is he could teleport from birth to and did so on the way down) and was found by a woman named Margali Szardos. Margali raises him as her own along with her bio-children, Jimaine and Stefan, whom he grows up with as siblings. Margali is a sorceress, and her children have magical powers as well. Stefan made Kurt promise that he ever went bad due to black magic, Kurt would kill him. He did, and murdered several children. Kurt tried to stop him without using deadly force, but in the course of their struggle, Stefan strangled himself with Kurt’s tail. Wouldn’t you know it, that’s when some German villagers arrived (Kurt’s version of Germany is kind of like Generic Medieval Europe from a fantasy novel despite it being the 70s) and, upon seeing this, believed Kurt to be a demon responsible for killing their children. An angry mob formed and would have killed him if Prof X hadn’t been there to save him, which is when he joined the X-Men. During the course of his time with the X-Men, Kurt started dating a flight attendant named Amanda Sefton. Then, Margali turned up. She believed that Kurt had murdered Stefan, not knowing what had really happened, and trapped him, along with the other X-Men, in a magically-created Hell she’d made for him. Jimaine then appeared to rescue them and show her mother what really happened. She then revealed to Nigthcrawler that she had been Amanda all along, having disguised herself with magic. So, he was dating his sister all along without realizing it. And yes, she IS his sister, and his mind should interpret that as incest even if he knows they’re not biologically related. The incest taboo forms psychologically not based on biology but on who you’re raised with, so, mentally speaking, she’s as much his sister as if they were blood-related, and he seems to regard her as such. And by disguising herself as someone else and having sex with him under that identity, she committed what is known as rape by deception (because his consent is given based on false pretenses/misinformation, he’s being tricked, he’s not consenting to sex with Jimaine, he’s consenting to sex with Amanda, who he thinks is someone different). And I am pretty sure they indeed had sex. They‘re shown naked in a bath together drinking champagne, how much more explicit do you want from a comic book? But even if they never took it all the way, it’s still skeevy as fuck because it’s still a romantic relationship that he’s been tricked into with someone that is actually a relative who is deliberately deceiving him. And why the hell did she decide to be his girlfriend? Was that really the only way she thought she could be close enough to him to guard him from her mother? When he has so many female friends/team-mates and clearly is not one of those dudes that can only relate to women as love interests? And for that matter, it’s never made clear (to my knowledge) why she felt the need to disguise herself at all. Why not just show up as herself and warn him in advance BEFORE her mom got there and did anything? It just seems to be like she saw this as an opportunity to pull this shit and have a ‘heroic’ excuse for it. Especially since THEY CONTINUE THE RELATIONSHIP AFTERWARDS. Speaking of that, him consenting to sex with her knowing she is Jimaine AFTER this happens doesn’t change that he wasn’t consenting before. And yes, he loves her, but...Kurt wouldn’t be the first person to be in love with his rapist (which does happen as a coping mechanism, but that’s something rarely talked about, except in gross “woman falls in love with man who ~tames her~” stories and that doesn’t count) Him falling in love with her doesn’t make it not rape. Many people are raped by their spouse or lover. Plus, if you consider his background being made up of constant rejection and hate from literally everyone else except a small group Jimaine/Amanda was a part of, it makes extra sense why he might forgive her anything as long as she kept ‘loving’ him. Hell, the fact that his first girlfriend, the first woman to ever accept (as a romantic partner) his true appearance, turned out to be Jimaine all along probably made him think that only Jimaine ever *would* accept him as a romantic partner. Imagine the elation and relief that he felt when he first revealed to “Amanda” what he looked like and she accepted it, even wanted to be intimate (he’s in his true form when they’re in the tub) with him like that? And then it turns out that it’s not real. Yes, she’s accepting for real, but that’s because they were raised together from infancy, it’s not the same thing. They do break up later, because Kurt voices doubts on if he really loves her or if she used her sorcery to make him. Jimaine gets pissed and dumps him, but honestly…she’s used magic to trick him already, it’s not a bad guess on his part at all. And the question is never answered. What’s also notable is that even after he finds out she’s Jimaine, he keeps calling her Amanda. Which, to me, suggests he can’t wholly accept what happened even if he technically knows it to be true, which is another reason he might have kept dating her, never addressed the deception as a bad thing, etc. Said deception has never been treated as a bad thing by the writers or by the fans as far as I’ve seen, nor anything else about the relationship. The most I’ve seen is people joking about it being incest (while clearly not regarding it as such because I guess they think  DNA is everything) and it’s just like holy shit I never liked Amanda, I never liked their involvement, and for a long time I couldn’t put my finger on why I just viscerally avoided any issue with her in it…I sort of assumed I just must be jealous because I like Kurt so much, but now that I’m older I can see EXACTLY what my problem was. Srsly, wtf? Oh yeah, and she’s still around as a character here and there. For instance, he went to consult her about some possible demonic activity and she confirmed she keeps tabs on his activities via her crystal ball, so she’s continuing to stalk him after assaulting him all those years ago. THIS IS ALSO NOT TREATED AS IN ANY WAY BAD OR EVEN WEIRD AT ALL. So yeah, I’d appreciate it if this was acknowledged for what it is, if not by the actual text than at least by the fans.
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dragimal · 8 years ago
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Your tags on that RWBY post fucking summarize all of my thoughts on RWBY Jesus Christ. I mean, I appreciate the show and the work that people put into it, but it's so flawed. It just drives me nuts when people blindly follow it because of its RT ties. I like RWBY but I will gladly point out what's wrong with it AND still find a way to like it. (Also, why the fuck are people bustin a nut for the figures, they're really ugly I think 🙈)
LMAO I’m glad someone else considers it more of a guilty pleasure show! it’s a fun show and I do love to learn more abt the RWBY world, but I just can’t find it in myself to get -super- invested in it b/c of those problems w/ plot, overused tropes, etc. like I honestly can’t even call it a ‘good’ show, all I can say w/ 100% truth is that it’s fun/entertaining. but is that entertainment from intense plotlines, gripping dialogue, or developed character arcs? not… rly..?… (in fact, I’ve cringed at character dialogue on a number of occasions lmao)
and it’s kinda sad b/c there ARE super interesting ideas there (the weapons, Grimm, and the like), but there are just so many other things that don’t have explanation (IE- faunus), or they don’t have any parameters (IE- semblance). and y’know these things COULD be forgivable in a different show w/ a better handle on plot development and all, but as it is they’re pretty distracting
even Grimm, an element of the world I find interesting, always seem so vague. it just feels like there’s a lost opportunity there for more interesting eldritch/psychological horror, or even ethical implications if Grimm do have some sort of sentience/awareness
I already slightly ranted abt how faunus are a boring excuse for a humanoid species, but I srsly just gotta get a lil’ more off my chest abt them b/c oh my god. it may be nit-picky of me to get into evolutionary feasibility here, but I’m a bio major w/ an interest in realistic creature design, so it’s kinda my thing. there are just no parameters for what nonhuman traits faunus have, they’ve got all KINDS of species and it’s just so frustrating b/c like? ram horns wouldn’t be useful on a human b/c the rest of our bodies aren’t built to handle skull/spine impact like ram bodies are? monkey tails (or paper-thin feather boas, in RWBY’s case) wouldn’t be useful b/c our spines/hips aren’t built to handle the force of hanging, nor are they structured to allow us easy crouching/climbing (our ancestors may have been arboreal, but we’re upright nowadays for a reason). why do ALL faunus have good night vision– not every animal is nocturnal and relies on good night vision. and, most importantly, what the FUCK is up with the ears? why are there two sets? are we expected to believe that there are two sets of ear canals, or are the nonhuman ears just for display? display for WHAT tho? nothing abt faunus makes sense if you think about the fact that nonhuman parts only work ON THE ANIMAL THEY EVOLVED FOR. I know the design team was prolly goin for the “cat girl trope” but with a twist, but the twist is even more convoluted than the original trope
and don’t even get me STARTED on how the “racial tension” was handled here. I’m not gonna get into the obvious parallels w/ human racism, b/c it’s not my place (tho I def think that angle could have been handled a lot better). let me just say as someone intensely interested in both animal rights and ethology, I don’t appreciate the whole, “we’re not animals!!” rhetoric. like…. we’re all animals… humans are animals… faunus are MULTIPLE animals… get tf over urselves and don’t put down other species just to build urselves up…
it’s also a big pet peeve of mine when magic/powers don’t have some sort of “quantifiable” explanation– some restrictions that let me know what the magic is, how it works, and what specific powers/properties are possible within those magical constraints. it’s part of the reason I’m usually not big on superhero stories b/c super powers could be literally anything without any restrictions (which is, ironically, pretty boring), and that’s what I get from RWBY’s semblance. I’m kinda behind on the show right now, so idk if this is delved into later on, but I super don’t get why Ruby’s time-freezing power is considered so novel when literally every other conceivable power also exists SOMEWHERE in the world. like, sure, it’s powerful, but I don’t see why it’s so ground-breaking, y’know?
AND ONE MORE THING I’d REALLY SUPER APPRECIATE more practical clothes for the gals. like I know some of the guys have some impractical outfit choices too, but it’s just so much more for the girls. like are girls even allowed to wear pants in that universe or what? and I guess I could complain abt the same-face/same-body character models (at least guys vs. girls), but I’m not familiar w/ animation restrictions here so I’ll just leave that alone. still real boring and mildly irritating to see tho, esp when I just want to see some diversity (and less cisgender-stereotype bodies, but that’s already too much to ask from most big-time shows, much less internet-based shows so I can’t rly expect much here… I just WANT it……..)
LMAO SORRY I RANTED I JUST NEEDED TO VENT A LIL’. I rly do love the show, it’s just… it could be SO MUCH MORE y’know?
as for the figures, yeahhhhh they’ve never seemed quite right to me. the poseable Ruby at least looks nice, but the static figures are uh… a little off…
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My Opinion on;
Character in general: It’s not a secret that I love OCs with all my heart, I fell in love with Krait when I read your bio and headcanons!! I enjoy seeing other people think and make some awesome characters and watching how much they love and want to make them more human and give to them feelings and experiences not only good but bad too. You’re Krait is great, everything about her it’s very interesting, I’m her fan!How they play them: Well it’s obviously that you only can playing her and I like how you do and how much you think and write about her. It’s really fantastic to see you in my dash!!The Mun: M is such a great person, you always help me when I have doubts in English and also talk to me. I never forget that you were the first blog I followed and even when I just play in english you say good things about my portrayal!! I really missed you in the time I wasn’t here and also I love you so much, woman
Do I:
RP with them: Yes, I do it and I enjoy it so much!Want to RP with them: OF course, whatever you want!
What is my;
Overall Opinion: I love you character with all my heart, It’s really how an antihero needs to be, even if she makes Invel angry haha, also I need to say that I’m glad to found you, srsly,I didn’t think about the possibility of having another person with whom I could play ‘dark plots’ I hope we can have more of them and obvs I want to make Krai more miserable, just wait for it
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